Motherhood, Nadya Raessa

2 weeks on

Can’t believe it has been 2 weeks already. Because i still feel sore down under. Rasa macam minggu lepas je baru keluarkan baby. Lol But yes, it has been 2 interesting weeks indeed. Went for my Post Natal checkup with Dr Citra on Thursday. 2015-01-29 16.46.30-2 Checked on my stitches and so far it’s healing. That’s all i need to hear. I think i’ve not mentioned this before but i had a mini accident at the hospital. Had a fall in the toilet on the 2nd day of my stay. Totally my fault really, cos i moved around in the toilet without the nurse assistance even though i had a Risk for Fall tag on my wrist. Padan muka. Degil sangat. But it got the nurses and the doctors scrambling to my room in minutes. I think i scared the hell of them because i was smiling and apologising. Got to know the ward have a 100% fall free record for 2014 and guess who broke the record for 2015? Me. So so guilty nak mampos. Got to know from the night nurse that everyone was briefed about it during their changing shift briefing and was told to look out for me. The crazy bitch who went to the toilet alone. LOL  Kidding. They were told to look out for abnormal bleeding on my end. Although so far it has been ok actually. The only thing i was scared of was, did i rip my stitches apart? Apparently not. Anyway enough about the stitches.

Friends have been asking “how are u coping?” / “how are you & baby?” / “are u ok? Do u need help?”. So much love for all these people and honestly, if anybody tell you motherhood is easy, don’t listen to them. Because it is not. If you think you’re overly paranoid when you’re pregnant, try being a first time mom. I can’t tell you how many times i’ve check on Nadya. Just to make sure she’s still breathing. And when she keep too still during sleep, i cucuk her pipi so she’ll stir in her sleep. Don’t judge me. I’m sure most first time mom do that.

If you ask me how is motherhood treating me so far, i’ll say it’s draining. You get so tired the 1st few weeks and i don’t know what the next few weeks would be like. Kita rembat je lah k baby? Please don’t expect everything to be a bed of roses for the 1st few weeks because you gotta be superhuman to achieve that. You can read thousand of parenting articles while you’re pregnant but you need to be thrown into motherhood to really know how it’s like. 2015-01-22 09.00.09But at the end of the day, when you see your child in deep sleep, safe & happy, you know you’re doing something right. Whenever Nadya scream bloody murder, i look at the photo above and whatever naughty thoughts i have of putting her back in my tummy, hilang begitu sahaja. Lol 2015-01-23 10.43.58 We also managed to do Nadya’s Cukur Rambut at Masjid Ar-Raudhah. She was surprisingly quiet. I think she find the buzzing sound of the shaver kinda comforting. I shall bear that in mind. It was pretty fuss-free really. The ustaz briefed us on the importance of doing the cukur rambut. Basically it is a Sunnah Nabi and also for hygiene purpose cos some babies have the cradle cap thing on their head. It’ll be easier for it to go away if there’s no hair.  Nadya didn’t have any cradle cap and i kinda think it was because of the many coconut water i drank because everybody told me so. So maybe it really works ah. Her head is really clean now. And by clean i mean botak. Hahahaha She got mistaken as a boy few times already. Padahal budak tu pakai baju pink, mittens pink segala and u think she’s a boy. What’s wrong withchu. Lol 2015-01-31 23.56.28I’ve also discovered how Babywearing is such a gem especially at home! Because i need to do work and i’m alone with her most of the time, i’ve taken to babywearing her to soothe her when she’s fussy. She sleeps immediately this way. I’m a happy mummy because i get to do work and also keep a close watch on her. Now i’m tempted to buy more wraps.  I still have so many things to talk about actually. Like my breastfeeding journey so far and the confinement i’m going through right now but we’ll leave it for later when i have time to post panjang lebar lagik ok?

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Nadya Raessa

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And our precious one finally made an appearance on 14 January 2015 at 8.27pm. Alhamdulillah.

I’m still getting the hang of motherhood. Pretty intense. I get frustrated when i can’t seem to latch her on properly. But when i see her fall in deep sleep, my heart swell with so much love, i cannot take it.

I hope i’ll have time to pen down the birth story soon before i forget the details. But honestly, i doubt i can forget what happened. Lol

Pregnancy, Third Trimester

40 weeks

Ok nak jugak blog sampai 40 weeks! LOL

Went for my routine check up today. Early this morning, i drank air zam zam, ate kurma and talked to baby. Told her “Ok babe, let’s make this our final check up please.” 

Was supposed to go the Fetal Scan Centre at 11.30am and then see Dr Citra at 12.30pm but i forgot about the 11.30am appointment and strolled in the Women’s Clinic like a boss at 12.30pm instead. Now, this is why i need to deliver my baby soon because the pregnancy brain is seriously tak kelakar. Luckily Dr Citra said she’ll do the scan herself nanti!

So first up was the CTG Monitoring. Was a little anxious cos yesterday, it feels like baby is making less movement. She used to kick me really hard and now all i feel is just her squirming. So to hear the heartbeat loud and clear when they did the CTG Monitor was very reassuring and then guess what, my little girl think it’s funny to move around a lot during the entire CTG Monitor. The machine beeped a few times cos it lost contact with baby’s heartbeat cos she was all over the place so the nurse sat next to me, holding the small monitor terkejar2 kan heartbeat budak kecik ni. Lol.

After that, Dr C did a scan to mainly check on my Amniotic Fluid level and to quote her “it’s on the lower side of the healthy range.” A healthy AFI Level should be between 5 – 20. Mine is at 7. So my waterbag level is slowly decreasing. Bila masa dia decrease i also don’t know. I told Dr C about the lower pelvic pain i had in the morning. It was so intense i had to bend down and rest at the kitchen sink and could barely walk. But it went away after that so it could be a muscle spasm or something. TMI but i really wanted to pass motion at that time but i was too scared to. LOL

Told her my Braxton Hicks contractions was intense last sunday. I first thought it was contractions but when i timed it, it was irregular. So i didn’t bother calling the delivery suite. Dr C told me it is definitely my body preparing for labour and i could be dilated already so she offered to check my cervix and do a membrane sweep.

My cervix is soft and i was already 3cm dilated. Baby is also quite low already based on the scan.
Based on that alone, she asked me if i’m ok with being warded today. But i asked her if it’s ok i go in to the Delivery Suite tomorrow instead because i wanna go home and wash my hair 1st. Hahahahahaha. Not kidding.
Partly also because i wanna eat Prosperity Burger & Twister fries nanti malam and also because DHL is coming to deliver my car seat cover today and i don’t want to miss the delivery. PRIORITIES ALL WRONG! LOL

That and also i’m hoping that the membrane sweep will somehow kickstart the contraction and i can start labour naturally tonight. Else, Dr C will break my waterbag tomorrow. Think she’s concerned because my waterbag level is decreasing and because baby is making less movements. So yes, i figure better be safe than sorry. I told her to put off inducing me and do another membrane sweep 1st besok before she break my waterbag. ewaaaah.. aku pulak yang mengajar!
But damn that membrane sweep is sooo uncomfortable. It’s like Pap Smear x 10. Cos she pushed her finger right up to my cervix and then make sweeping motions with her fingers. I bled after the membrane sweep and i’m still bleeding but she said it’s normal after a membrane sweep procedure.

It’s now 3 hours after the membrane sweep and i do feel cramps and backache.
I also think i was already having mild contractions all this while, cuma aku je tak tau. Hahahaha. Tau2 dah 3cm dilated.

I’ve packed all my necessities in the hospital bag already. Now just waiting for dinner time, to order McDees and then hopefully i get to sleep for a bit because tomorrow will be another intense day.

Wish me luck!

Pregnancy, Third Trimester

39 weeks

oh yeah.. Baby is still in my tum-tum.
Had another Gynae appointment yesterday and Dr C told me “try going for long walks.. take the stairs.. eat spicy food”
So i went shopping at Jem after the appointment to look for nursing bras and some other necessity, like errr cute hairbands for me. Lol

The shopping trip had me in stitches though (and few hundreds poorer!). I had Braxton Hicks in the midst of all the shopping. I’ve been having frequent Braxton Hicks and probably some false labor contractions the other night. But nothing so painful that warrant a visit to the hospital. After all, the cramps kinda subside when i move around so i figured it’s not a real contraction. So yes, i’m still wondering how real contraction feels like.

I’m also nursing a fever, flu and a bad cough. So i’m kind glad labour has not started yet cos i prefer not to be sick during labour. I get really cranky when i’m sick and the thought of having to push a baby out seems like double the hard work. So i told Dr C to prescribe me meds so i can clear the flu & cough up asap and i was given some antibiotics safe for pregnancy.

Dr C also mentioned checking my waterbag levels and an internal check next week and if baby is still not out yet, we’ll set a date for a possible induction at 41 weeks cos my sugar levels seems to be on a higher side these days. Although to be honest i blame it on the honey i’ve been taking to soothe the cough (ok lah… to be fair, i also indulged in Ben & Jerry’s. Lots of it!) But of course i didn’t tell Dr C that! Some things, you just don’t tell your gynae lah ok. Kidding.

Friends & family have been msg-ing me regularly to ask if i’ve given birth. Even Rusly’s colleagues have been asking him “is the baby out yet?”. Looks like we’re not the only excited ones!

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Me at 39 weeks. I love my new pyjamas. So cute! But Rusly told me i look like a Vietnamese maid. Boohoo.
Or maybe he meant Vietnamese Mail Order Bride. Hahahaha

It’s even harder to sleep now. I sleep for 3 hours interval most of the time and each time i toss & turn in bed, Rusly will wake up and ask “You ok? Sakit ke? Contractions eh?” Lol.
Somebody will be having sleepless night for a week or so.

I’ve been tempted to try other natural labour-inducing method and then i saw this hilarious video on Youtube.

So cute lah this woman! Hahaha.
I might just be tempted to do this if i still don’t have any labour signs by next week! But probably not when Rusly is at home.
Super embarrassing sak. Dah macam ni.

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Of Hospital Bag & Nursery

I’ve finally crossed these two from my to-do list, taking advantage of the few long weekends and the short week at work for Rusly.

We honestly didn’t do much for the Nursery cos we probably won’t be using much of it till later since baby will be sleeping with us in the Master Bedroom. We used the Nursery to store her wardrobe and supplies like wet wipes & diapers etc. If i had more time (and energy), i would have prettify it a bit more but this shall suffice for now.

IMG_5547Had to mosaic one of the poster cos it reflects her name. Lol

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Reflections

Adieu 2014

2014 has proven to be bittersweet for both me & Rusly.

The long-awaited pregnancy news got us jumping for joy and Alhamdulillah i’m blessed with a smooth pregnancy so far.
And then Allah threw us a curve ball in November. Our world came tumbling down.
Amidst all the excitement of welcoming a new family member, my MIL got diagnosed with Breast Cancer, Stage 4.

It was the worst day of our lives and then i see my husband, my pillar of strength in constant sadness.
How do i deal with that? How do i tell him that things will turn out fine? Cos sometimes, i’m not sure myself.

I won’t deny it, sometimes i think Allah is unfair.
How are we supposed to be happy & excited for our firstborn when one of our loved one is battling for her life.
But i know He has his reasons and we have accepted it, redha and will take things as it comes.

If anything, it has brought us closer to Him.
It has taught us patience and mostly, unconditional love. That’s the only thing keeping all of us together.

Times when i feel like complaining about all the third trimester pain & aches, i keep her in mind.
Whatever she’s feeling now is so much harder than my backaches and cramps.
If i need Rusly by my side, she needs him even more right now.

I don’t know what the future holds.
So much uncertainties, but i’m sure we’ll do just fine.

With that, i bid adieu to 2014.
You have taught us several lessons in life. Hard knocks & awwww-worthy moments.

Pregnancy, Third Trimester

37 Weeks

We’ve reached full term today, Alhamdulillah.
37 weeks checkup done today. Was slightly late as i was too sleepy. I could barely open my eyes. But i had a solid 6 hours undisrupted sleep last night which i’m thankful for because i was so tired from all the previous sleepless nights. I even took a nap while waiting for my appointment tadi.

Something funny happened earlier, i was slouched on the sofa and sitting in front of me is another pregnant lady and her son, who is probably about 4-5 years old? Baby was really active this morning. She kept moving and kicking and my tummy was all senget sebelah. At one point, the little boy saw the baby moving and he was so amazed he kept looking at my tummy and then at his mum and then he looked at me as if i’m keeping anak kucing dlm perut. Hahahaha. So cute lah the boy!

My Strep B test came out negative so we’ll do without the antibiotic drip when i go into labour nanti.
My BP is normal so far and i was telling Dr C that i feel increased pressure down below. It’s heavier and harder to walk.
So while doing some routine check, Dr C mentioned baby is engaged and i’m already going through the lightening process whereby the baby is moving towards the birth canal.

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Shopping Spree

Baby Taobao

So.. i’ve collected my Taobao loots over the weekends and as promised, will share what i bought, the price and then maybe you’ll understand why i’m always Taobao-ing!

Some of the stuff i managed to take picture of, just because some people are afraid of buying from Taobao cos sometimes really indah khabar dari rupa and i do agree at certain extent, some things are just not worth buying from Taobao. Especially clothes. Please don’t even bother.

Waterproof Mattress Mat / Diaper Changing Mat 

Bought about 4 pieces of these in different sizes so that i can easily rotate it if it gets dirty.

IMG_5527Super cute designs and you won’t believe how much i got it for. They all come in different sizes, costing between $3.00 – $5.00 each. Saw the same type of Mats selling at Qoo10 between $8.00 – $12.00 each before shipping. These are Bamboo Fibre material. The absorbency should be good and it’s soft! I obviously have this obsession for bamboo fibres. Lol
So anyway, you can get these here, here & here.

Laundry Basket 

IMG_5532I was looking around for a cute laundry basket that is not too bulky and preferably foldable so we can save space and i saw this. A unicorn laundry basket! How cute!! While it is not foldable, u can flatten it up and then keep it aside. You can get it here at $7.83!

Bottle Rack & Bottle Brush 

IMG_5529 The bottle rack is at $3.87 while the brush is at $4.50. I know u can get the bottle brush cheaper elsewhere but i specifically wanted a self standing one with a hidden teat brush so when i found this, just buy je lah. The rack can be found here while the brush is now OOS and the link is no longer working.

Cute Little Bow Headbands

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How cute are these and they are all below $2.00!! Between $1.30 – $1.70 each je. I didn’t wanna splurge on expensive headbands yet cos you know, babies are so temperamental. Sekali dah beli mahal2, she don’t wanna wear! Initially i wanted to DIY my own but malas, after i saw how cheap these normal bow headbands are. LOL
Like really tak justify effort aku langsung. If the baby is happy with wearing headbands, then we can buy the fancier ones next time! I bought all these headbands from this seller.

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Friendship, Special Events

One Last Wedding

….for 2014 at least.

Met the other girls for Elyn’s wedding yesterday. Initially thought i might not be able to make it cos Rusly might have to do Hospital duties but Alhamdulilah the MIL got discharged on Friday so we just have to head over to Yishun after the wedding at Woodlands, so it was pretty convenient to do a quick trip to the wedding.

The last wedding before i give birth and be deprived of Ayam Masak Merah orang kahwin!
Reached at about 12.30pm, just nice because the groom just arrived with the kompang & his entourage. We were sitting too close to the pelamin though so the kompang was right behind me. Baby had a blast dancing to the rhythm of the kompang.

Us girls with the radiant Bride & Groom. Missing akak Farhana kita!
Us girls with the radiant Bride & Groom. Missing akak Farhana kita!

Managed to meet Baby Shafa again. Kesian dia kena romos2, pipi kena cubit2.. tangan kena squeeze2 by all the kakak-kakak. Such a sweetheart. Each time she smiles, it got us in an excitement. “alahhhh.. tgk tu dia senyum.”
Shafa pun layankan je! Lol.

I had to leave shortly after Elyn left for the Groom’s side because Rusly was waiting for me at the carpark. He wanted to catch up on some sleep, so kesian. That and because he refused to wear long pants because it was such a humid day and i refuse to let anyone wear bermudas to weddings. Hahahaha

IMG_5525One last thing to do before leaving. Photobooth pictures with the girls!
5 girls and a baby.

Who knew blogging brought us girls together, eh?

Pregnancy, Third Trimester

36 Weeks

and we’re at 36 weeks this week. tick tock tick tock.
Macam cepat gila and baby will be full term next week.

I had high hopes of finishing a lot of baby related stuff last week but the MIL was admitted to the hospital again last week and i’ve been busy going to and fro hospital and so it remained stagnant.

But early this week, i managed to wash some of baby’s clothes and swaddles. Next would be her bath towels, washcloths etc pulak, Can i just mention how divine baby detergent smells like? And how cute baby clothes are?! Hahaha

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