2 weeks on

Can’t believe it has been 2 weeks already. Because i still feel sore down under. Rasa macam minggu lepas je baru keluarkan baby. Lol But yes, it has been 2 interesting weeks indeed. Went for my Post Natal checkup with Dr Citra on Thursday. Checked on my stitches and so far it’s healing. That’s all i need to hear. I think i’ve not mentioned this before but i had a mini accident at the hospital. Had a fall in the toilet on the 2nd day of my stay. Totally my fault really, cos i moved around in the toilet without the nurse assistance even though i had a Risk for Fall tag on my wrist. Padan muka. Degil sangat. But it got the nurses and the doctors scrambling to my room in minutes. I think i scared the hell of them because i was smiling and apologising. Got to know the ward have a 100% fall free record for 2014 and guess who broke the record for 2015? Me. So so guilty nak mampos. Got to know from the night nurse that everyone was briefed about it during their changing shift briefing and was told to look out for me. The crazy bitch who went to the toilet alone. LOL  Kidding. They were told to look out for abnormal bleeding on my end. Although so far it has been ok actually. The only thing i was scared of was, did i rip my stitches apart? Apparently not. Anyway enough about the stitches.

Friends have been asking “how are u coping?” / “how are you & baby?” / “are u ok? Do u need help?”. So much love for all these people and honestly, if anybody tell you motherhood is easy, don’t listen to them. Because it is not. If you think you’re overly paranoid when you’re pregnant, try being a first time mom. I can’t tell you how many times i’ve check on Nadya. Just to make sure she’s still breathing. And when she keep too still during sleep, i cucuk her pipi so she’ll stir in her sleep. Don’t judge me. I’m sure most first time mom do that.

If you ask me how is motherhood treating me so far, i’ll say it’s draining. You get so tired the 1st few weeks and i don’t know what the next few weeks would be like. Kita rembat je lah k baby? Please don’t expect everything to be a bed of roses for the 1st few weeks because you gotta be superhuman to achieve that. You can read thousand of parenting articles while you’re pregnant but you need to be thrown into motherhood to really know how it’s like. But at the end of the day, when you see your child in deep sleep, safe & happy, you know you’re doing something right. Whenever Nadya scream bloody murder, i look at the photo above and whatever naughty thoughts i have of putting her back in my tummy, hilang begitu sahaja. Lol We also managed to do Nadya’s Cukur Rambut at Masjid Ar-Raudhah. She was surprisingly quiet. I think she find the buzzing sound of the shaver kinda comforting. I shall bear that in mind. It was pretty fuss-free really. The ustaz briefed us on the importance of doing the cukur rambut. Basically it is a Sunnah Nabi and also for hygiene purpose cos some babies have the cradle cap thing on their head. It’ll be easier for it to go away if there’s no hair.  Nadya didn’t have any cradle cap and i kinda think it was because of the many coconut water i drank because everybody told me so. So maybe it really works ah. Her head is really clean now. And by clean i mean botak. Hahahaha She got mistaken as a boy few times already. Padahal budak tu pakai baju pink, mittens pink segala and u think she’s a boy. What’s wrong withchu. Lol I’ve also discovered how Babywearing is such a gem especially at home! Because i need to do work and i’m alone with her most of the time, i’ve taken to babywearing her to soothe her when she’s fussy. She sleeps immediately this way. I’m a happy mummy because i get to do work and also keep a close watch on her. Now i’m tempted to buy more wraps.  I still have so many things to talk about actually. Like my breastfeeding journey so far and the confinement i’m going through right now but we’ll leave it for later when i have time to post panjang lebar lagik ok?