First Trimester, Pregnancy

a week to go!

A week to go till the end of my 1st trimester! Yaaaaay!
one more week to our doctor’s appointment + our Oscar Test to test for Down Syndrome etc.
Just doing it for assurance and because i’m already 30 and this is our 1st child. But to be honest, actually i cannot wait to see baby on the screen again and see how big it has grown so far. My last scan was at 8 weeks and that’s almost a month ago. I’m deprived of  seeing a tiny being on a black screen. Yes, i’m pathetic like that.

While i’m still in my 1st trimester, here’s an update of how it has been so far!

4 – 6 weeks: 
Generally just bloated but otherwise quite uneventful. I didn’t have any morning sickness but i remember having frequents headaches which will go away in an hour. Frequently happen in the morning though. Appetite was still good. Gained a kg but i think it was from the bloatedness.

7 – 8 weeks: 
Still no morning sickness although so many mummies in the Forum were complaining of morning sickness. Almost all of them and i was a bit paranoid why i wasn’t having any. My appetite was still good and i can still eat but the weight i gained was gone. I was slowly losing a bit of weight for some weird reason. Gynae told me it’s normal to lose weight in the 1st trimester and i’m surprised i could lose that weight because God knows how difficult it is for me to even shed one kg when i’m not pregnant! The headaches became more intense, especially if i accidentally skip breakfast. I will have fainting spells when i’m hungry and if it’s too hot. Most of the time, i’ll just drink soya bean or milk and it’ll stop.

9 – 11 weeks: 
I thought i might be one of those lucky ones who’s spared from Morning Sickness and then it came!
at 9 weeks it was pretty mild, i constantly had this “want to puke” feeling but i never did or maybe i psyched myself not to.
This usually happen after my meals. I’ll feel really queasy and u’ll see me all quiet after meals cos i was trying so hard not to puke.

At 10 weeks, i let it goooooooooo. Hahahaha
After meals, i’ll feel the queasiness again and straight to the toilet bowl i go and puke everything out. Thankfully this does not happen very often. It usually happen if i drink milk / eat chocolates etc or anything creamy in fact. I’ve started carrying sourplums with me.

I also have an aversion to smell of people cooking. Each time i smell my neighbour cooking or if i walk past Kopitiam, i puke.
Or everytime my food come and it’s piping hot and steamy, and i can smell it, i’ll feel like puking. My sense of smell has heightened to a whole new level.

Now,  i can’t even take the taxi and not want to puke. I had to ask taxi uncle if they are ok with me winding the window. I think i can’t stand sitting at the back of the car cos of the motion and all but i’m too paiseh to sit alone infront next to the taxi driver so i suck it up and sit behind. I’m ok when i sit in our own car though cos i sit at the passenger seat infront.

At 10 weeks, my appetite is slowly going away. I don’t feel like eating cos i fear i will throw up and i hate the smell of food.
While i do eat, because baby needs to eat anyway, i don’t finish up most of my food and i have this “can we get this done and over with” attitude towards food. Very sad one, because i love food seh.

My energy level has been really low at 10 weeks. I’m sleeping earlier than before, i take afternoon naps because i’m too tired and i have no mood to do work. Very tiring. I don’t know how people in their third trimester are coping.

My GP told me all these usually goes away around 14 weeks and i honestly cannot wait for the 2nd trimester because i want my energy back. Really feel very blah each time i’m too tired to do anything and i want to eat properly. I want to start cooking again and not feel like i wanna puke at the smell of food.

Met one of my girlfriend last week and she is in her last trimester, giving birth in 2 weeks time and she gave me this piece of advise.
“Do all your preparations for the baby in the 2nd trimester. That is when u have all the energy.”

She was busy with shifting house during her 2nd trimester and only got down to buying stuff for the baby in her last trimester and regretted it cos all she wanna do is get it done and over with. Hahaha

This should be really interesting. This few months down the road.
Looking forward to every milestones till the end!

Le Familia

Balik Kampung!

Not balik kampung per se since i don’t really have a kampung and one of my to-do list is to go to a kampung wedding just for the fun of it.

So last Saturday, me & the family took a road trip to Kota Tinggi for Saridah’s wedding. Saridah’s is my father’s colleague, who has long since regard her as his own daughter. So of course we have to go to her wedding! Never mind it’s about 2 hours  from SG and it was pretty hard to find her kampung but thank god for Abah’s HP, we managed to find the kampung with his GPS. Our car GPS macam tak boleh harap. Lagi sikit dah sesat.

We started the day early at about 9.30am. There was a massive jam and we only managed to pass thru JB Checkpoint at 11.30am.
We finally reached Kota Tinggi at about 1.00pm plus.

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Reflections

Alhamdulillah

I may not realize it but i think i don’t say this enough. For all the blessings He has given me so far.
No matter how long it takes or how difficult it might be. Knowing He will always be there for me through thick & thin is..very humbling.

Alhamdulillah.

I’m at a point where i think i have achieved everything i could possibly want, except to continue on the road towards better-ness.
Towards Him. Might be taking my own sweet time but i know surely i’ll be there, on that right path.

Insha Allah.

First Trimester, IVF Journey, Pregnancy

IVF: Do’s & Don’ts

Quick update on my pregnancy! It’s 7th week tomorrow! So fast yet feels so slow.

We had our 1st Ultrasound scan last friday, in my 6th week. Was really nervous on that day.
You don’t know how paranoid i was the entire two weeks from my BFP to my 1st Ultrasound scan.
I didn’t have much symptoms. Got me quite worried and thinking if i’m really pregnant.
Even then, i was scared, what if it was a blighted ovum?

But all went well when we went for the Ultrasound Scan.
We did a trans vaginal scan and it was a bit painful. Doctor said the uterus area is very sensitive right now, which explains why it’s uncomfortable.
When i saw the flicker, i knew it was the heartbeat and i was overwhelmed with happiness.
I have a baby. A baby with a heartbeat. So so relieved.

Yes, we’re expecting a singleton! You know when we 1st did the transfer, i was hoping for twins. That would be really awesome. But nearer to the scan date, i think with all the jitters and all, i was hoping for a singleton.
I’m currently working from home and it would be really hard to take care of twins and work at home at the same time. If we indeed have twins, employing a domestic helper would be an option we have to take, reluctantly. But really, twins or singleton, i just hope the baby would grow up healthy.
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IVF Journey

IVF: Dollars & Cents

The most common question i’ve received on IVF. How much did it cost?
I know some of you have emailed me on this and i have yet to reply cos i can’t remember where i kept the receipt and i just found it so here goes, the detailed  breakdown of the IVF Treatment.

Things to note: 

1) My IVF was done thru National University Hospital (NUH)
I think the price differs slightly among the three government hospitals (KKH, NUH & SGH)
A friend told me NUH charges slightly higher than the other 2 but really not a lot higher, maybe a few hundreds here and there. If you are going the private route (Thomson, Raffles etc), then the charges will be totally different from what i have here cos you’ll not be eligible for the Government Co-Funding.

2) I’m a subsidized patient. If you’re a private patient in any of the three hospitals, the price will be a little bit higher.

3) I’m on a short IVF protocol. I did not take any other injections before starting on my stimulation jabs.
i went from taking Nor-E pills straight to Stimulation jabs.
If you are older or have a small egg reserve, your doctor might put you on a longer protocol. Longer protocol means more drugs, more checkups and higher costings.

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Le Familia, Makan Chronicles, Pregnancy

Rajah

So we had an advanced Birthday cum belated Mother’s Day treat for the MIL at 21 on Rajah. Been wanting to go there since i read so many reviews from other bloggers.

But i was sorely dissapointed.
The price was reasonable though. So if you are not very choosy about the buffet spread and you just need a place to eat and be merry, then i think 21 on Rajah is perfect. We only spent $197.00 for 5 adults and 1 child lunch buffet. That is close to what we spend for two pax at Carousel.

The good thing was, even though lunch buffet ends at 2.00pm, they allowed us to stay there and chit chat till about 3.00pm. Nobody bat an eyelid. Nobody told us to leave. So that’s a good point!

We told the in-laws of the good news yesterday and everyone was so happy and that made me happy too!
Such a little thing, yet u made so many people happy already!

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First Trimester, IVF Journey, Pregnancy, Trying To Conceive

empty

you know it’s still quite hard to believe that i’m pregnant.
Some of my Mother-In-Law’s friends were wishing me Happy Mother’s Day yesterday and hope i ‘sangkut’ with a child soon. They didn’t know yet about the little thing i’m carrying now.

No one has outrightly asked me how it feels like to be infertile and if i could explain it, it would be infertility is invisible.
You don’t lose anything. You don’t have visible scars nor will you die from it. But boy, it hurts.
Hurts so bad when you see numerous negative test results.
Hurts so bad when you see someone who just gave birth few months ago, got pregnant again.
Hurts so bad when everybody is celebrating Mother’s Day and all you have is that aching emptiness in your tummy.

And all you want is a child to hug you and smother you with kisses and tell you that they love you.
I know that emptiness. Too well.

When i found out i’m pregnant, i promised myself i will not complain excessively on the morning sickness, back pains and how i can’t fit into my pants. Neither will i be that annoying mom-to-be, stroking my tummy every minute in front of someone i know who’s dying to be a mom. Yes, while i deserve to be happy and blessed after all i’ve been through, i can’t shake off that feeling of being ‘lonely and hopeless’ away.  That feeling of despair, bitterness & heartbreak.

But i’m human. I might forget. I might accidentally gloat and i apologize in advance.
If you are still trying to conceive, please know i understand how you feel. I really do.

IVF Journey, Trying To Conceive

Race to the end!

My 2ww is coming to an end soon! My blood test is finally tomorrow! 
So far here’s what i had during the 2ww. 

1st – 3rd Day after Transfer: 
Cramps and twinges at my abdomen area. I still go out for dinner and to my mum place because of my sister’s merisik session. The next day i went for a jamming session and on monday i went to the recording studio to do the final mix. But i make sure i don’t walk too much. No shopping trips for the 1st week. 
Most of the time i rest at home but i don’t lie down all the time. I had really long vivid dreams. Must be all the medications. 

4th – 7th day after transfer: 
I start to have heavy discharge. Very creamy lotiony type of discharge. Very little cramps. I also had loose stools. Not exactly diarrhea cos it was a once-a-day-affair but definitely loose stools.
I was starting to wonder if it is even gonna be successful but i kept my hopes high. 


8th – 10th Day after Transfer: 
Cramps started again. Now even more intense. But other than that it’s quite uneventful. I’ve not had any implantation bleeding so far. There was also one night where i had a bad indigestion and could only sleep at 5.00am. 

9th – 11th Day after Transfer: 
Craving for oily & grubby food. Got quite bloated and gassy. Kept burping and passing wind. It was quite embarassing actually. But they said bloating & being gassy is normal cos of all the progesterone inserts. Got very tired easily. Sleepy by 9.00pm and in the morning, i’ll have this slight headache which will eventually go away. 

Today is my Day 12 of transfer and i hope we get a good beta for tomorrow’s blood test!
So exciting!