Reflections

Adieu 2014

2014 has proven to be bittersweet for both me & Rusly.

The long-awaited pregnancy news got us jumping for joy and Alhamdulillah i’m blessed with a smooth pregnancy so far.
And then Allah threw us a curve ball in November. Our world came tumbling down.
Amidst all the excitement of welcoming a new family member, my MIL got diagnosed with Breast Cancer, Stage 4.

It was the worst day of our lives and then i see my husband, my pillar of strength in constant sadness.
How do i deal with that? How do i tell him that things will turn out fine? Cos sometimes, i’m not sure myself.

I won’t deny it, sometimes i think Allah is unfair.
How are we supposed to be happy & excited for our firstborn when one of our loved one is battling for her life.
But i know He has his reasons and we have accepted it, redha and will take things as it comes.

If anything, it has brought us closer to Him.
It has taught us patience and mostly, unconditional love. That’s the only thing keeping all of us together.

Times when i feel like complaining about all the third trimester pain & aches, i keep her in mind.
Whatever she’s feeling now is so much harder than my backaches and cramps.
If i need Rusly by my side, she needs him even more right now.

I don’t know what the future holds.
So much uncertainties, but i’m sure we’ll do just fine.

With that, i bid adieu to 2014.
You have taught us several lessons in life. Hard knocks & awwww-worthy moments.

Pregnancy, Third Trimester

37 Weeks

We’ve reached full term today, Alhamdulillah.
37 weeks checkup done today. Was slightly late as i was too sleepy. I could barely open my eyes. But i had a solid 6 hours undisrupted sleep last night which i’m thankful for because i was so tired from all the previous sleepless nights. I even took a nap while waiting for my appointment tadi.

Something funny happened earlier, i was slouched on the sofa and sitting in front of me is another pregnant lady and her son, who is probably about 4-5 years old? Baby was really active this morning. She kept moving and kicking and my tummy was all senget sebelah. At one point, the little boy saw the baby moving and he was so amazed he kept looking at my tummy and then at his mum and then he looked at me as if i’m keeping anak kucing dlm perut. Hahahaha. So cute lah the boy!

My Strep B test came out negative so we’ll do without the antibiotic drip when i go into labour nanti.
My BP is normal so far and i was telling Dr C that i feel increased pressure down below. It’s heavier and harder to walk.
So while doing some routine check, Dr C mentioned baby is engaged and i’m already going through the lightening process whereby the baby is moving towards the birth canal.

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Shopping Spree

Baby Taobao

So.. i’ve collected my Taobao loots over the weekends and as promised, will share what i bought, the price and then maybe you’ll understand why i’m always Taobao-ing!

Some of the stuff i managed to take picture of, just because some people are afraid of buying from Taobao cos sometimes really indah khabar dari rupa and i do agree at certain extent, some things are just not worth buying from Taobao. Especially clothes. Please don’t even bother.

Waterproof Mattress Mat / Diaper Changing Mat 

Bought about 4 pieces of these in different sizes so that i can easily rotate it if it gets dirty.

IMG_5527Super cute designs and you won’t believe how much i got it for. They all come in different sizes, costing between $3.00 – $5.00 each. Saw the same type of Mats selling at Qoo10 between $8.00 – $12.00 each before shipping. These are Bamboo Fibre material. The absorbency should be good and it’s soft! I obviously have this obsession for bamboo fibres. Lol
So anyway, you can get these here, here & here.

Laundry Basket 

IMG_5532I was looking around for a cute laundry basket that is not too bulky and preferably foldable so we can save space and i saw this. A unicorn laundry basket! How cute!! While it is not foldable, u can flatten it up and then keep it aside. You can get it here at $7.83!

Bottle Rack & Bottle Brush 

IMG_5529 The bottle rack is at $3.87 while the brush is at $4.50. I know u can get the bottle brush cheaper elsewhere but i specifically wanted a self standing one with a hidden teat brush so when i found this, just buy je lah. The rack can be found here while the brush is now OOS and the link is no longer working.

Cute Little Bow Headbands

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How cute are these and they are all below $2.00!! Between $1.30 – $1.70 each je. I didn’t wanna splurge on expensive headbands yet cos you know, babies are so temperamental. Sekali dah beli mahal2, she don’t wanna wear! Initially i wanted to DIY my own but malas, after i saw how cheap these normal bow headbands are. LOL
Like really tak justify effort aku langsung. If the baby is happy with wearing headbands, then we can buy the fancier ones next time! I bought all these headbands from this seller.

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Friendship, Special Events

One Last Wedding

….for 2014 at least.

Met the other girls for Elyn’s wedding yesterday. Initially thought i might not be able to make it cos Rusly might have to do Hospital duties but Alhamdulilah the MIL got discharged on Friday so we just have to head over to Yishun after the wedding at Woodlands, so it was pretty convenient to do a quick trip to the wedding.

The last wedding before i give birth and be deprived of Ayam Masak Merah orang kahwin!
Reached at about 12.30pm, just nice because the groom just arrived with the kompang & his entourage. We were sitting too close to the pelamin though so the kompang was right behind me. Baby had a blast dancing to the rhythm of the kompang.

Us girls with the radiant Bride & Groom. Missing akak Farhana kita!
Us girls with the radiant Bride & Groom. Missing akak Farhana kita!

Managed to meet Baby Shafa again. Kesian dia kena romos2, pipi kena cubit2.. tangan kena squeeze2 by all the kakak-kakak. Such a sweetheart. Each time she smiles, it got us in an excitement. “alahhhh.. tgk tu dia senyum.”
Shafa pun layankan je! Lol.

I had to leave shortly after Elyn left for the Groom’s side because Rusly was waiting for me at the carpark. He wanted to catch up on some sleep, so kesian. That and because he refused to wear long pants because it was such a humid day and i refuse to let anyone wear bermudas to weddings. Hahahaha

IMG_5525One last thing to do before leaving. Photobooth pictures with the girls!
5 girls and a baby.

Who knew blogging brought us girls together, eh?

Pregnancy, Third Trimester

36 Weeks

and we’re at 36 weeks this week. tick tock tick tock.
Macam cepat gila and baby will be full term next week.

I had high hopes of finishing a lot of baby related stuff last week but the MIL was admitted to the hospital again last week and i’ve been busy going to and fro hospital and so it remained stagnant.

But early this week, i managed to wash some of baby’s clothes and swaddles. Next would be her bath towels, washcloths etc pulak, Can i just mention how divine baby detergent smells like? And how cute baby clothes are?! Hahaha

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Uncategorized

The Travel Tag

Finally had time to do The Travel Tag that Farhana tagged me here which came at the right time before this blog turns into a pregnancy blog. Lol

And also because I HAVE TRAVEL WITHDRAWALS, you guys! My last proper trip was in February! That seems like 3 years ago! wth. So yes, if i cannot travel, i shall relive the memories!

With the baby coming along, it’ll be quite a while before we go for another proper trip because i have a paranoid father-to-be who feels that nowhere is safe for his daughter. Except home, maybe and bawah ketiak dia agaknya. Pffft.
He has no idea i’ve been browsing thru airplane deals for 2015, especially for the long weekends in April / May. Hahahaha

So anyway, let’s go!

What made you start traveling?
The need to escape from work actually. That feeling of not having to wake up at a certain timing, fight for space in public transport and face my superiors. That few days of not having to be available for others.

Where was your first plane ride to?
To Manila! I started flying quite late. Think when i was 22? Cos i have a fear of heights (i still do!) and i was afraid of being trapped in a confined space at a high altitude. Until i was told to travel for work. And then i had to travel to Manila & Indonesia every month for about two years after that 1st trip, and suddenly, naik aeroplane macam naik bas gitu. Lol

Where have you travelled to that you would love to visit again?
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I would love to visit Bali again. The last time i was there for 5 days but it was honestly too short of a trip to discover more of Bali and now i know why people keep returning to Bali again and again because there’s just so much to see! People in Bali are so so nice, it’s hard to not like Bali.

What are 3 of your must have travel items?

Travel Adaptor:
Because if you don’t bring this, bawak charger segala charger pun tak guna. Especially if your hotel have very limited travel adaptor to go by for their hotel guests.

Camera: 
Probably the only time i take lotsa pictures of myself is when i travel. It’s just a tourist thing to do, yes?

Po Chai Pills: 
Hahahahah very aunty i know but i have a weak stomach and after some bouts of food poisoning, i realized that no other anti-diarrhea pills work like Po Chai. So i make sure i bring them for all my trips. Those little pills work like a charm, baby!

Window, isle or middle seat?
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Window seats! I have an awesome bladder control so i don’t need to go to the toilet every hour and there’s just something very euphoric seeing the plane take off and then seeing the city pass u by as you drift up towards nothingness. Those cotton candy clouds make me happy!

What place is on your ‘places to visit next’ list?
Probably not next as in the next trip but i hope to visit Santorini soon. There’s just something about those white washed walls and cobalt blue doors. Santorini has always and will always be at the top of my Travel to-go list.

Where would you travel just for the weather?
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Australia! I love the weather when i was in Gold Coast early this year. I’m not a fan of winter, although the husband is.
I cannot stand extreme cold. I love the sun but not too much of it and Australia has the perfect blend of both weathers, i feel. It was breezy when i was there and even though the sun was up, i wasn’t sweating like a pig!

Do you have an interesting ‘I’m lost’ story?
It was during one of my trips to Manila, when there was a typhoon. It was so scary. I remember everybody scrambling for shelter. I wasn’t exactly lost per se but i felt lost. Because i’ve never encountered natural disasters like this and when faced with situations like this, i clammed up. Those telephone wires came crashing down on the road and the roof of the makeshift roadside stalls were flying all over the place. In minutes, the whole place was a mess. Just when i thought the whole ordeal was over, my flight back to Singapore was also bumpy because of the massive turbulence due to the typhoon. Scariest trip ever but definitely an eye-opener.

Where would you travel to just to eat the food?
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Krabi in a heartbeat, baby! Yum yum yum. I would go back there again to savour that Tom Yam Khaa / Pad Thai / Banana Chocolate Pancake. You have no idea how i crave for that Tom Yam Khaa at this kedai makan tepi jalan. So sedap!
I love Thai food in general but Krabi is the best because it’s Muslim dominated so finding authentic Halal Thai food was such a breeze. Authentic tu penting ya kawan2, pasal kalau Halal Thai Food je, pergi Al-Azhar pun boleh. Lol

Is there a place you would never go again?
I wouldn’t say i wouldn’t go there again but out of all the places i’ve travelled to, Jakarta would be the last place i would return to because the traffic jam is horrendous. For all my trips to Jakarta, i always get stuck in the traffic for 2 hours+ and once, i missed a flight back to Singapore because i was stuck in the traffic jam close to 4hours+ because there was some protest / riot going on.  It was all very traumatizing cos i usually travel to Jakarta alone and being stuck in a foreign country alone is scary, even if you speak similar language. I remember my flight was scheduled at 8.00pm. I reached the airport close to 7.30pm and the next available flight out to Singapore is just before midnight! From then on, i made sure i leave the hotel 6 hours before my flight whenever i’m in Jakarta!

If you could take one person with you to travel who would it be?
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My husband, because he always help me to carry my luggage and he’s better at reading maps. HAHAHAHAHA
ok kidding. just in case he reads this.
I had a few travel partners but my husband has got to be the best travel partner i have. Amazingly enough, we rarely fight during trips. Maybe cos he’s the “i just follow” kind while i’m the one who plans everything to a T and i think he feels safe with me because i know what we’re doing and where we’re going. I feel safe when i travel with him because he’s a people person. He gets along with people quite well. Despite the garang face, he warms up to people really fast and makes an effort to chat with the locals. On the other hand, i always have this huge wall i put up and will take my own sweet time to loosen up when i’m with strangers. So we make awesome travel partners to each other.

How do you pass the time on the airplane?
I usually read because reading is no longer a luxury i can afford. So i usually bring a book or buy a book when i’m at the airport. That and i usually load my iPhone with tons of songs that i can listen to during flights.

Are there other people whom you think would do this?
Well, i hope they’ll do this cos i’ll love to hear their travel stories!
Dancing Fairy Queen (Haryani)
Eleventh October (Ili)
Two Nine October (Tini)
Lustish (Yasmin)
Kiss The Bridezilla (Izzah)
and everyone else, of course!

 

Pregnancy, Third Trimester

Stuffed

main_turkeyThis is how i feel these days. Macam stuffed turkey baru kluar oven. Baby is still quite high up so i have difficulty breathing most of the time. I try to walk around the house more, hoping it’ll provide me relief. Tapi kaki pulak sakit, because of the water retention. #pregnancyproblems.

I also have a huge appetite these days. You should peep in my bag. It’s filled with snacks.
Macam kedai mama bag tu sampai out of shape and all. I get hungry all the time. I’ll wake up in the middle of the night feeling peckish and i’ll start eating small bites. When i wake up in the morning, it’s full on hungry! Macam 3 hari tak makan punya hungry. Surprising cos i lost appetite during the 1st & 2nd trimester and then now it’s back with a vengeance!

Other than that, my nesting period has finally kicked in. We got the IKEA Drawer up last night. Major achievement i tell you. So proud of Rusly. LOL
I also managed to finish up some DIY project last week.

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Like this Bolster & Pillow Set. From some scrap cloth i found from previous projects. Will try and sew crib sheets next when i have time to buy more cloth!

I’ve also finished up the Name Blocks! Will take a picture of it soon!
Now in the midst of spray painting some rattan ‘treasure box” and the existing IKEA Shelvings in the room and pasting some design strips on the IKEA Drawers.

I’m still thinking if i should buy the Wall stickers from Etsy but the thought of fixing it up macam lemau sikit. Although actually Rusly will be the one fixing it up because he won’t allow me to climb up a ladder. But OCD me would want to pasang sendiri.

As of now, i’ve sorted out baby clothes, removed tags and arranged them nicely in the drawer. Till i have time to go and do the 1st wash and then next would be to find out what to put in the hospital bag and print out a labour cheat sheet for Rusly. Like where to go when i’m in labour, Delivery Suite Hotline, where to do the Birth Cert & Baby Bonus Registration etc..

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34 weeks this week! 6 weeks to meeting my babe, InshaAllah.
I know 6 weeks will pass by really fast. But when you’re in your last trimester, 6 weeks pass by so slowly!

IMG_5385Help! I can barely see my feet now!
And i swear by my FitFlops! I use to think they are overpriced slippers but ohmaigod they are so comfortable, i’m not kidding you! if you’re pregnant and you think all your flats / sandals are damn kurangajar to you, go and buy FitFlops!

Ok dah. This entry is getting too random already. Lol

Pregnancy, Third Trimester

Towards a Natural Birth

So i finally attended the Natural Birth Talk with the husband yesterday morning. I went ahead with Birth Maia by Kak Fadillah Yusope. It was really by chance, cos i PM-ed her on FB, asking if she might be opening a class soon and she said yes! Anyway, i got to know her from the FB Group The Gentle Birthing Ummi Support Group. You guys can join that group if you wish to read up on other local muslim mummies attempt on Natural Birth.

So we started the day early yesterday and head over to Yishun for the class. Class was supposed to start at 10.00am but the other couples came late so we only started at about 10.30am. It was a small group, only 4 couples in the group so it was definitely an intimate session. I enjoyed the session and was quite worried Rusly might not enjoy the class but he was quite participative in the class and enjoyed the sharing session.

We basically covered on how to achieve natural birth. The cons of episiotomy, induction, epidural and c-sections. Our rights as a birthing mother, what to do when we are having contractions / when our waterbag burst etc. One of burning question – when is the right time to go to the hospital because as much as i can, i would prefer to go through my initial labour pains at home instead of at the hospital. Thankfully, Kak Fadillah kept saying NUH is very pro-natural birth and mentioned how she and her clients have worked numerous times with Dr Citra and she is a pro-natural doctor who will try hard to adhere to your birth plans and not just throw it out of the window. So yes, i’m slightly relieved at that because i feel it’s useless to do up a Birth Plan if your gynae is gonna dismiss it and just go ahead with the template birth procedure.

Sidetrack a bit, during my last appointment with Dr Citra, she mentioned she usually let her patients wait till 42 weeks if they can and i was pleased to hear that because honestly i don’t think many hospitals do that. Usually, they’ll try to induce you at 40 weeks and get the baby out asap. However, she mentioned because i have GD, if my sugar levels rise too high closer to labour or if they think baby is getting way too big, she might have to induce me latest by 41 weeks if baby show no signs of making an appearance. But i did tell her we’ll play it by ear cos i really do not wish to be induced / have a failed induction which might result in a C-sect. But we shall see!

As of now, my birth plan consists of;

– Natural Birth with no unnecessary medical interventions eg Induction unless Labour has not started at 41 weeks.
– Epidural to be made available only if i request for it.
– I prefer not to have episiotomy.
– Able to walk around & move freely at the hospital and not be strapped constantly on the bed.
– Able to eat & drink.
– Delayed cord clamping within 5-10 minutes after birth
– Give birth in upright position. (via Birth Stool / Squatting position and i was told Dr Citra is ok with that)
– No other males present in the room
– Quiet & Peaceful environment. I don’t want to hear nurses shouting at me to push macam National Day Parade because it’ll just make me tensed.

I think as of now, it’s achieveable, except the part for no C-sect because i wouldn’t really know the dangers me & the baby will have to go through during labour until the day itself so yes, while i’m not inclined to have C-Sect, i’m not against it if that is the only way for me to get the baby out.

While i rejoice over other mummies positive birth stories, i also have to be realistic with mine because we all manage pain differently and we can all plan everything to a T but ultimately, i leave everything to Allah SWT. I also hope Rusly remembers what he learn from this session because he have the potential to be a good support system for me. Currently, he’s very encouraging and accommodating and i’m glad to share this journey with him. I’ll probably print out a cheat sheet for him soon and paste it on the fridge so he’ll know what to do when the time comes.

If you ask me, it was definitely worth sacrificing our sunday morning for this session. I’ve learnt so much and also know of the options i have with regards to birth. There is no right or wrong timing to attend these classes. Two other mummies in the class is in their 5th month. The other one is in her 3rd month. So naturally they were excited to hear i’m already in my 8th month.

Kak Fadillah initially thought i was in my 5th month pregnancy too and was shocked when i told her i’m in my 8th month. In her words, “You hide your pregnancy well, macam teenager.” Hahaha. Now, if only i look like one as well. Lol

Third Trimester

Hey 32!

We’ve come to the next milestone, which is the 32nd weeks. So that’s 8 months of pregnancy!
I did my final growth scan yesterday and met up with Dr Citra again for a review.

The scan was alright although i would have preferred the sonographer who did my 28 weeks scan. The one i had yesterday was giggling too much. “This is the head.. heehee”  “This is the body… heehee”. 
urmmm.. i’m supposed to be the excited one, remember?

Also we couldn’t see baby’s face because her head is down already! She’s no longer in breech position and i hope she stays that way. Although i had a hard time explaining to Rusly because he kept saying things like “Baby dah head down, dia tak mabuk ke bila upside down?” Hahahaha. My husband, everyone.

I had to remind him baby is in a waterbag, surrounded by water and probably don’t know she’s upside down ke upright ke sideways and he kept laughing at the image of baby upside down with her legs flailing about, macam as if so funny gitu. Actually if you come to think about it, memang funny ah. I also kept laughing at the the image of baby upside down.

Dear Baby,
you have weird parents with a weird sense of humour who think upside down babies are funny.
Good luck.

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Le baby at 32 weeks

So anyway, based on the scan, baby is well and healthy. She’s at 1.7kg now which is the recommended weight for 32 weeks. My amniotic fluid is also still on a healthy level. All is good and i’m so relieved. Dr Citra also checked my Glucose level stats and said i’m an A* Student! In fact she was a little bit worried that my stats are a little on the lower side and told me to eat a bit more. Pulaaaakkk.

I’ve also been experiencing Braxton Hicks. Didn’t know it was Braxton Hicks but Dr C told me so. It’s just some cramps and a really hard bump. I’ve had it mostly at night. Especially just before i sleep. It does not hurt that much but got me a little uncomfortable. Also having slightly more vaginal discharge these days but Dr C told me as long as it’s not green / foul smelling, it’s normal. So yeah, i’ll say that more or less, my third trimester is pretty textbook pregnancy.

I also managed to score a seat for a Natural Birth workshop by a muslim Doula this sunday! Will share more about it after i’ve gone through it.

I hope the next two months will be easy on me. It is a difficult time for me & rusly right now, with the recent going-ons in his family but we’re keeping ourselves positive that things would turn out right eventually. It is especially hard on Rusly now but i’m glad he thinks this pregnant woman is pretty easy to please and in his words “tak banyak kerenah”. I really think things happen for a reason and if it makes us a better person after all of His tests, then we’ll take it in stride.

Pregnancy, Third Trimester

30 down. 10 to go.

Oh yes, we’re in the 30th weeks now!
That means i have 10 weeks to go. That’s 2.5 months before i pop.
I don’t know why but everytime i tell myself 10 weeks to go, it seems so near.
But when i tell myself 2.5mths to go i’ll be like “alaaaah lama lagi lah!”

I just hope that baby will stay snug in there for 10 weeks. Kalau tak sabar pun, stay for at least 7 weeks more ok.
Cos u’ll be full term by then and after that you wanna come out, keluar je lah. I ok je.

Nursery: 
You know, i thought i would be very excited about the Nursery. Actually i am lah. Just that i’m too lazy to think about decorating it. I’m waiting for the nesting period to kick in and then start worrying about the nursery. The baby cot has arrived though. It’s all assembled cos they did it all for us so it’s sitting all pretty at one corner.

I don’t think we’ll be repainting the room. It’s currently mostly white with a grey wall on one side and i kind of like it grey because it’s a neutral colour so i think i’ll keep it grey with mostly white furniture and some pink decoration stuff. Like pillows lah and apa2 je lah.

I have plans to DIY some deco stuff like the name blocks and posters. Actually i’ve done the artworks but i’ve not send them for prints yet because i’m just lazy. To think i print invitation cards for a living.

All we need to buy now is the wooden blocks, photo frames & curtains from Taobao. Everything is in the shopping cart. Tengah tunggu nak checkout aje.

We’ll be getting the MALM 6 Drawers from IKEA as her wardrobe because i wanna save space and baby clothes are so tiny i don’t think i really need a full wardrobe. That’s if i can control my spending on baby clothes lah. As it is, she has more clothes than Rusly already. Kesian laki aku.

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This is the colour scheme i’m looking at but looking at how unmotivated i am right now, i’ll be lucky if that room has a curtain. Tak kisah lah colour apa curtain tu. Janji tak pakai kain batik tutup tingkap.

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