Come as you are. As i want you to be.
It has been a year since he squatted in front of me and asked me to be his wife.
I still remember how he surprised me with the whole thing. Once, his mom told me to wear her ring to see if it fits and i did not suspect anything at all till the day he was supposed to come over my place, i was surprised they were holding trays of gifts and cos of all his nervousness, he squatted instead of kneeling in front of me. I was shocked but really happy.
It has been a year b.
Happy anniversary!
Tomorrow, my ticker will be single digit.
Till last sunday, i kept telling people, “oh my wedding is in 2 weeks time”.
Yesterday, someone told me “eh.. your wedding is next weekend!”
That instantly freaks me out.
I went for my final fitting yesterday. Changed my Baju songket to a newer one and i am so so glad they could accomodate to my request. Sayang dorang!
I would love to tell you guys what happen the whole of yesterday and the weekends. Maybe tomorrow, once i upload some of the pictures because a blogpost is boring without pictures. heh.
I don’t know if i have mentioned the Burkill Hall Wedding that Jentayu was performing at, 3 weeks ago but Azmi just uploaded some pictures of the event and i thought i’ll share it with you guys.
I was reading Miss H post on the outdoor locations and remembered i have not posted on my Burkill Hall experience.
That place, is awesome. If you have the $ to spend, go ahead and do it, however, i would suggest you do a dinner party for friends etc and not the whole makcik2 geng nya reception. Cos to go to Burkill Hall requires walking. Lots of it.
Lagik parah kalau case dinner reception, malam2 kena jalan daerah hutan, tak menyumpah makcik korang?
Apart from that logistics plays an issue. I know, cos we had to carry up our entire sound system up to the 2nd floor. That includes the Big speakers. Boleh hilang 5 kilo, turun naik tangga.
But other than that, that place is perfect. Since it’s already gorgeous on it’s own, it does not require much deco. Our customer did minimal deco and it looks pretty already.
and here’s a short video, a short compilation of the performance we did. Now yang ni kelakar seram sikit. Our lead singer was down with bad sore throat for that day, kes bebual pun susah, apa lagi nyanyi, but we of course can’t cancel the client last minute. Discuss nya discuss, me and the keyboardist had to stand in for Halim. They only managed to find my chords on the day itself and some songs, while i know how to hum to, i just forget what comes after. Thank god for the boys!
For years, i’ve been telling the boys i’m too shy to sing in front of a crowd, and just when i’m ready to, i get thrown into this kind of situation. lol
But it was fun though! It wasn’t easy but i think with practise, i surely can get used to it.No more stage-fright, ma!
Some pictures from the event we did on 18.09.2011.
I would like to declare that i am officially a pengantin paling procastinating. lol
I have yet to pass around my wedding cards to some of my colleagues let alone mail out some of the cards to my ex-colleagues etc.
Tu baru part card k kengkawan.
Bunga pahar yg DIY lom siap. Die-die, by next week nak kena siapkan jugak. My hantaran belom beli. Next week pun die-die kena beli jugak. Poster belom design and belom print. Tu pun die-die next week kena buat. The stickers for the favours pun belom buat. Tu pun die-die next week kena buat. Macam banyak betul benda aku kena buat next week.
But, i finally ordered the cupcakes untuk display depan pelamin selama 8 jam dan juga a Cake and cupcake set for the boy nya hantaran today. So that’s quite an achievement lah jugak.
Yesterday i did a mock up draft of the pelamin and seating arrangement for Uncle Jais. Hopefully he can accede to my request.
I can’t believe, i’m like almost 2 weeks away from my wedding. Cepatnya.
I have yet to edit some of the Hen Party pictures. Will do so soon. Hopefully before the wedding ah. haha
My friends are getting really excited, counting down with me.
Me? I’m excited but scared at the same time. Right now, i’m just taking things as it is.
Insyaallah semua ok.
Ok dah. Nak pergi design poster sekarang jugak!
We finally get to jalan raya on 24th September! Tu pun slot in last minute. We were busy with Raya Shows and wedding events 2nd and 3rd week of Hari Raya to even go jalan-jalan.
But Alhamdulilah, business has been really good for us this year. 🙂
We started off at 1.00pm and ended at about 9.30pm for me and the boy cos we needed to rush off for the F1 race. (more about that soon!) but the rest ended the Jalan Raya at about 11.30pm.
I didn’t get to take lotsa pictures. Too busy eating.
Here are some pictures i took using my iphone and the group picture taken by my friend.
Yesterday, me, the boy, my dad and my niece finally went to ROMM for the interview.
Do you know i actually forgot the whole interview process thing? Till i conveniently check my ROMM registration at my email and i realise we have to report ourselves 5 weeks before the wedding. I went 25 days before our wedding. Sikit lebih kurang halal ah tu.
The whole process is quite fast actually. I took a queue no. Waited for the counter lady to call us, verify our NRIC and print out the registration forms, then wait again for the kadi to call us in.
Waiting time was approximately 15 mins when i went over at 3.00pm.
The interview with the Kadi took about 5 mins.
My dad went in first, then it was my turn. The boy was the last to go in. The kadi who interviewed me was Kadi Nor Razak.
My dad tried to scare me by saying “Tok Kadi suara garau. Baik2 jawab. Macam garang je..” the moment he came out from the Kadi’s office.
I was scared stiff when i knocked the door. Alas, Kadi cuma tanya yang perlu aje. He asked if i was married before and if i’m a legitimate child and after asking all the necessary questions, he told me to take an oath. Dah, tu je.
When i got out of the room, i tried to scare the boy pulak.
Iyalah… mana aci aku sorang je kena takut2 kan.
I told him ” B.. tok kadi suara garang sey. muka pun garang jugak. U masok je, u make sure u cakap Assalamualaikum eh!”
Tapi member cool je. plan aku fail.
Dia keluar pun cool. Dia cakap part angkat sumpah, macam nak ketawa pasal macam amik pledge. he is so easily amused.
I have 24 days to go and i was just whining at Facebook on the things i have yet to do and find.
But i’m really really tired emotionally and physically.
Last weekend was a blast cos finally, after years of coaxing from the guys, i’ve decided to finally sing with the boys on stage.
We had a Hari Raya show at Rivervale on Sunday which was quite fun and according to the boy, i was quite mentel on stage. hahaha
We also performed at a wedding reception at Burkill Hall, Botanic Gardens on Sunday. Nice place tapi ya ampun punya lah leceh nak angkut barang2 naik. It’s a 2-storey bungalow with no lift. Go figure how we lift up our sound system and the big-ass speakers upstairs.
ok, that aside, my Hen Party is on this Friday!
I’m excited cos i know i will have fun with the girls. I really don’t know what we’ll be doing and at this point, i really don’t care. I just wanna meet them, talk & laugh and forget about the wedding preps for awhile.
It all happened so fast, before i knew it, we are a month away to the wedding. Sometimes, i take time to reflect a lot upon our relationship. As is the case with every women out there, i’ve wondered what made me so sure that he’s the one?
Is this relationship gonna work?
Why am i getting married to him? I mean, why him?
I don’t mean to suggest i’m having doubts about getting married. My fiance is an awesome guy. The fact that he is willing to put up with my overabundance of sometimes-shitty attitude is amazing, really.
Provided i don’t piss him off enough to justify homicide.
Yesterday night, lying sick on my bed, I thought of the times he see me au naturel sans all the makeup and truth be told, i never ever meet any of my ex-es without makeup. Yes, i was an insecure girl deep inside.
Although i know he loves it when i dress up for him and all, i know i am comfortable in my own skin to show him my naked face. It may seem such a meaningless thing.
But i’m the girl who is so used to hide behind all the gunks i put on my face to feel secure about myself.
Not anymore.
This morning, i had an epiphany. Maybe this is what marriage is all about.
It’s about sharing moments of vulnerability. It’s about standing naked in front of another human being, for better and for worse, and saying,
“Yes, I am a human being. I’m not perfect. Sometimes I can be truly flawed and petty and ugly and sometimes kind of insensitive.”
It’s about learning to trust my partner, trusting that he can accept and love me in spite of all my ugliness.
This is a hell of a realization to have right now. Even now, as my wedding date looms over me, this is something that I am still getting used to and perhaps the single greatest thing in my life.
There is someone in this world with whom I can be entirely myself, without shame or apology. 🙂
Less words and more pictures. Click on thumbnails to enlarge.
33 days to the wedding, i am finally done with the invites.
I swear, i am behind time. I am never gonna DIY these envelopes again, not even for my first-born child’s wedding. hahaa
Yes, these envelopes are a killer, but i love it, and that’s all that matters really.
My mom and dad have started giving them away and my relatives love it! *beams*
I’m gonna start giving it out to my colleagues and friends starting tomorrow. Will also be mailing out some tomorrow too to some friends.
Have i told you guys, i just can’t wait to get all this done and over with? Really, the wedding preps are taking a toll on me finally. But on the other hand, i will miss all these excitement. I am so twisted.
The bestie just told me the other day she can’t come back to SG on my wedding. She’s currently heavily pregnant with her 2nd one and is stuck at Qatar with her hubby, who is currently stationed there. I really, really miss her and as much as i really want her to be at my wedding, i shall not be a selfish friend.
Oh, the misery of having one of your best friend across the world. *sigh*
I sure am freaking out.
We are 43 days away to the wedding. That’s like 1.5 months to go till we hear the kompang.
Nervous? Yes, i am. But i am soaking in the excitement of it all.
Time really pass so fast, before we all know it, it’ll be end of September already.
I’m so productive today. *pats back*
I called up the Town Council today to confirm that we don’t have to book the nearby void deck to do the cooking and prep work. Cos mine is a link-house kind of MPH and there is a limited space to set up the tentage. Luckily, we don’t have to pay for the space.
Then, i called Starhub to sign up for Cable TV and broadband for our new house. So exciting! Soon, we will be lazy bums, watching E! Entertainment all day long.
I really gotta start my cookies baking soon. Been procastinating for so long. Finish up my invite envelopes and send it all out. So many things to do!
Selamat Hari Raya!
Hope the first day of Syawal has been really great for you guys.
It wasn’t as tiring as i thought it would be though. We only visited four houses and i had lotsa fun with my siblings, as usual.
I love Syawal as it brings all of us a lot closer and we always reminisce the stupid things we do as kids. This year, we had a new addition to the family.
He was well-behaved throughout the whole visiting and next year, there will be a new addition to the family too! *yay!*
Yesterday, i no longer get asked the “when are you getting married?” question. phew.
We talked mainly about my wedding and my new house. hur hur.
Next year, they will start asking me the “Bila nak ada anak?” question. lol
It was awesome, going around giving out our cards to the relatives. It’s gonna be my last Raya as a single. Next year dah double! In fact Hari Raya Haji pun dah kira dah double. Hari Raya Haji pun Raya jugak pe..
Some pictures from 1st Syawal!
My two favourite girls. My nieces. God, i love them like my own!
It is so quiet when they are not at home. When i move to my own place, i probably won’t get to see them often, since they are currently staying at my mum’s on weekdays. I know i will miss them lots.
My two sisters! I will sharing the room with them, surely and getting ready together each time before we go out for family visits and taking our own sweet time, while the mom start screaming for us to hurry up. I will definitely miss that. Not! lol
This year i didn’t even plan much for my Baju raya. I tailored my baju 1 day sebelum Puasa and got it 2 days before Raya. The materials were actually sitting in my wardrobe for the longest time. I had some black chiffon material and i told the kakak tailor to make an Abaya kind of dress for me. She took some leftover lace patches and did those patchwork design on the dress, which i totally love especially since im only paying $60.00 for that. haha. I also did a simple Baju Kurung Pahang using the songket that the FMIL got for me during my 26th birthday. Itu aje. Malas nak bergaya. I didn’t even wear high heels lor, since we did not go public, so i don’t see any point. I wore my sandals out and to be honest, tak glam langsung!
But i told my sisters, takpe. Kalau akak glamer2 time raya, nanti time kahwin hilang seri. Time kahwin baru boleh jembu2. hahaha.
To be honest, i have enough of the rendang and what-nots. I am gonna continue eating my Yong Tau Foo now. Till October. In a bid to eating more healthily. lol
Lastly, i would like to selit and seek forgiveness from you guys, kalau2 pernah terkasar bahasa, kat blog or kat twitter or kat email or mana2 ah, Sorry yer. Serious tak sengaja!
Deardyan 