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Open House 2015

March 24, 2015March 24, 2015 Dyan

After much consideration, we finally did an Open House yesterday. I’m not exactly fond of doing Open Houses cos of the amount of work & effort! The cleaning up too! But since we did not exactly do Majlis Cukur Rambut for Nadya cos we find it unnecessary since we’ve done it at the Masjid already. Takkan nak cukur lagi rambut budak tu for show kan?

Most of Rusly’s relatives have met Nadya because she’s around for the Tahlil but most of my relatives have not and i figured instead of bringing her to them one by one, its best to just do an Open House and invite them over. Also invited some of my friends who have yet to meet Nadya cos i just can’t afford time to do individual lunch dates. We should have named the event Meet The Baby Session seh. Cos really, everybody is just there to see this girl.

Unrelated but i managed to sew her headband the day before the Open House cos i couldn’t find any existing one that might match the tutu dress she’s wearing, It was a nice Peach Fabric with gold shimmers on it.

Ordered brownies from Divinefavorz Mall. Was adamant on giving out food items for berkat because i personally like food items. Transactions were fuss-free and i think i ordered these less than 2 weeks before the event! We really did a last minute arrangement which is so unlike me.

Did the kids goodie bags myself the day before the event. Bought some snacks fro Valu$ and the packaging from SKP and did it in between Nadya’s nap time!

Managed to order food from this kakak i know off FB few days before the event because i was unhappy with 2 caterers whom i shall not name. But it turned out to be a blessing in diguise because this kakak charged cheaper and her food is so nice! My father cooked the Tulang Merah though. So sedap! Although i only ate after the event because tak senonoh tuan rumah makan tulang. Yums!

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Most of the kueh melayu were given to us by my aunties, ordered from the kakak caterer etc but the brownies & the puffs which are not shown here were bought from J&C Bakery at some Woodlands Industrial area and it’s really the bomb! If you have parties and you need desserts, consider them because it’s really nice! I love love love their brownies and cheesecake. Does not taste factory-made!

The ONLY group picture i took. Can u believe it!

One more picture of Nadya, just because it’s her party after all!
Would i do another Open House, for Raya perhaps?

Maaaaaybe. But damn it was so tiring, my legs gave way after the whole thing!

Motherhood, Nadya Raessa, Uncategorized

So she’s two!

March 16, 2015March 16, 2015 Dyan

Nadya turned two months last saturday! Time pass by really fast eh?
So what did we do to celebrate her 2 months?

We went ICA to do up her passport because we’re bringing her to our KL Roadtrip this coming Good Friday holidays!
Initially wanted to leave her with my parents but macam so kesian and also cos my parents pun ada plans so we figured memang rezeki dia ikut kita so we chop chop do her passport! We’re going with our friends so Hosni will be driving us in and so glad for that because i cannot imagine having to take the coach with a baby. Can u imagine if she cries in the coach and we’re stuck in the coach for 4 hours and everybody will give us the evil eye seh. Lagik kalau night coach. Hahaha. Kalau bus driver tak tinggalkan kita anak beranak kat highway, kira nasib baik ah. Glad we’re driving in as well cos we intend to venture out to Bangsar area if possible instead of staying put at the usual Bt Bintang area.. and while it might be easy to take a cab from our hotel, i fear it might be difficult to grab a cab when you’re at some obscure place.

I also didn’t wanna take the plane yet cos i feel she’s too young? But fret not because her 1st plane out will be in September cos we’ll be going Jogjakarta with my family for our annual family trip! Or maybe her plane ride might come earlier since they’ve just declared August 7 Public Holiday and it’s so tempting to go somewhere. But we shall see! We’re thinking of Krabi (because i miss that place so much!) but August is not exactly the optimal time to go so it could also be Perth (because it’s cooling in August) but not sure if she can handle a 5-hour flight for her 1st flight out. Or maybe she’ll do just fine and i’m just a worrywart, as usual.

or maybe we’ll stay put in SG and celebrate National Day, as per Halimah Yaacob’s instructions. LOL

So anyway, back to the trip,. we know we can do the passport online, but i chose to do it at ICA because then, i’ll have a reason to detour to..

Fluff Bakery! Because “it’s on the way lah B!” Hahaha
I really balas dendam lor. I wanted to eat Fluff since pregnancy but i kept holding back pasal ada Diabetes and takut it will spike up. So dah lepas pantang and because i’m officially cleared of Diabetes, 2 saturdays in a row pergi Fluff!

We also went to collect my new sewing machine! Finally decided to get a new one cos the old one is a bit wonky already and i’ve been busy sewing cute stuff for Nadya like these headbands!

Might be selling these because i can make extras each time i do a new one for Nadya. Details will be up soon! Starting really small though cos i didn’t really a huge piece of fabrics to start out with.

Next time will try and sew some leggings & harem pants for her pulak! So fun to dress her up!

Motherhood, Nadya Raessa

WAHM WHAM!

March 6, 2015March 6, 2015 Dyan

Often, people tell me “Ohhh it’s so nice to be a Work-At-Home-Mom! You have the best of both world. You get to earn your keep and see each and every one of your child milestones.”

Now see this video.

Always been my worry. LOL
Trust me, Nadya is barely 2mths old and i’m already having difficulties getting my artworks done on time. Can u imagine her in few months time?

I’ve always think a mother is a mother. No such thing as a part-time mom lah, weekend mom lah. If you’re a Stay-at-Home-Mom or a Full-Time-Working-Mom, you’re still a mother. Your child don’t care about all those titles. They only know that you’re the mother. At the end of the day, they still want you.

So yes, don’t tell me how privileged i am because the grass always does seem greener on the other side.

I would kill to have a 1 hour uninterrupted lunch hour and possibly go window shop & have colleagues to talk to, because yes there’s just so much baby talk we all can attempt.

Likewise, i would love to be able to spend time with my child, do housework and then sleep while she sleeps and not rush through emails, artworks and what-nots because me telling you i’m deprived of sleep is an understatement.

But we all get through this somehow. It’s just a mother’s thing.

Le Familia, Uncategorized

Our last goodbye.

February 19, 2015March 6, 2015 Dyan

It took me some time to pen this down. Maybe because i was still in denial. But i really do want to document this down, lest i forget what happened.
Although i really doubt so.

So Nadya turned 1 month few weeks back and on the same day, my MIL lost her battle to cancer.
We found out about her Stage 4 Breast Cancer in November 2014, just 1 week after we got back from our KL Trip together.

It all happened so fast and even though we were already mentally prepared for it, i can’t help feeling devastated about it. It has been 3 weeks since she’s passed away and not a single day went by that i did not think of her and somehow or rather, our conversations will gravitate to “Mummy would love this” / “Mummy used to do this”.

On her 7th day of Tahlil, i broke down in the kitchen because i remembered those times when she would come over our place every week for dinner. The place she would sit at the dining table. The way she said “Alhamdulilah” after her meal and her voice when she picks up her home phone and realized it’s me and she’ll go “Hello, Dyan!” in that unique rhythm reserved for me.

I miss her. I really really do. I’m quite fortunate i’m close to my in-laws. Not the kind of “close for the sake of being close because she’s my husband mum” but really close that we have to meet every week else we’ll miss each other kind of close. Maybe partly cos Rusly is her favourite child and also maybe because she is so easy to get along with.

During her funeral, people keep telling me how i’m such a good daughter-in-law, taking her in to our place while i was heavily pregnant and then during my confinement. What they never realize is how she has always been so so nice to me. She is such a selfless person. Even while she was sick, all she could think about was how tired it must have been for me, having to take care of her in my last trimester. She kept reminding Rusly to focus his attention to me instead of her. Each time Rusly sorta bully me, she’ll come to my rescue. While pregnant, i just have to mention in passing what i wanna eat and she make sure i’ll get it.

Few times she apologised to me for falling sick while i was heavily pregnant. I remembered the day after her 1st chemo, she held my hand, cried and said “Sorry dyan.. Mummy menyusahkan. You’re pregnant.. and you need all the attention and yet i’m taking it away from you” I still cry when i think of her face when she said that to me. 😦

2 weeks before she passed away, she refused treatment. Refused to go for additional ultrasound scan, refused to see her Doctor for consultation. We had the intention of stopping her chemo and let her continue with oral medications instead. We kept promising her that we won’t allow her to go thru chemo anymore and then one morning, my FIL knocked on my bedroom door at close to 9.30am with his eyes brimming with tears saying that mummy can’t breathe. True enough, she was gasping for air. Told her i’m calling the ambulance but she refused. I had to coax her to take the ambulance because i can’t carry her to the hospital on my own. She finally agreed and told me “Please call all my children. I want them with me.” So i called the ambulance and then called all her 3 children including Rusly to hurry up and meet at NUH A&E. I packed Nadya’s stuff, sent her to my mum’s place and head over to NUH A&E.

It was there when the doctor told us her organs are failing, like a domino, they are falling apart one by one.
They placed her in a special room in the A&E, gave us a special pass with “End of Life Program” written on it and told us they would not do any procedure on her. Instead, they want us to stay by her side and say some prayers because at that point, her chance of surviving the day seems very slim. We all cried together in that room. It was so hard for all of us to see her in that condition.

We managed to get her a room, informed all her relatives & friends and everyone came down to see her. Prior to this, she refused visitors. No one was allowed to visit her except for her children. Although a few of her friends actually knew of her condition, she refused to let them visit her. So it came as a shock when they see her for the 1st time. The weight she has lost, the hair she has lost and that cheerful disposition she had.

We requested for a terminal discharge from the hospital to fulfill her final wish – to pass away peacefully at our place.
So we arranged for an ambulance service to take her back to Bukit Panjang, called up some vendors to rent an Oxygen concentrator and arranged for private nurses to come in every day to see her condition. We were also briefed by the nurses on what to look out for, how to inject morphine in her if she’s in pain etc.

The night before she passed away, she was wheezing when she breathe. Even with 15 litres of oxygen support, she could hardly breathe. She was no longer responding when we talked to her. When i held her hand, i noticed tears at the corner of her eyes. I don’t know why but i somehow knew the day is near. That night, we all knew. My FIL requested us to stay by her side and baca Yassin for her before we go to sleep.

At 2.00am, Nadya cried for milk and while feeding her, i remembered thinking if i should wake Rusly up to look at his mom and see how she’s doing. But Rusly looked so tired and was in deep sleep so i dismissed it. What i didn’t know was barely few minutes after i slept after feeding Nadya, his father woke Rusly up because mummy took a long pause each time she breathes. When both of them came back to the room, mummy took her very last breath and passed away peacefully. Rusly’s sister, who slept over that night, woke me up, crying. At that moment, i knew, mummy is gone.

Even though we kind of expected it already, that final moment we had with her was very intense. We called for a doctor to certify the death at 2.55am, went to get the Death Cert done, called all our relatives & friends and arranged for the funeral.

10.00am came and people start streaming in. So did the people arranging the funeral. I asked the kakak in charge if it’s ok fo me to mandikan mayat as well, since i’m still on pantang and ada darah nifas. She said it’s ok. But some of the aunties were telling me not to. Takut i badi.
But really, i think that is the last thing i can do for mummy and i was glad i was part of it. Although i cried half the time and kept kissing her forehead.

Once mayat dah dimandikan and laid on the floor for her closed ones to kiss her and say their last goodbye, i searched for Rusly.
He was crying so hard and i can totally understand why. When it was his turn to kiss his mom, he broke down and kept crying and at one point, stood up to leave because he don’t think he can do it. I had to console him and tell him it is his last chance to kiss his mom and he have to brace himself for this.

By 12.00 noon, we left for the cemetery. Again, the entire family broke down. Especially when i saw her lowered down to the ground with Rusly & his brother down there receiving her coffin. When they started to bury the coffin with more sand till we lost sight of the coffin, we broke down again. I think it really made us realize that we’ll never see her again, or be able to touch her again.

Our only way of grieving right now is to see pictures & the plentiful of videos of her. Somehow, it fills the void of our hearts. But i truly miss her still.
Rusly have been having dreams of her. Once, he woke up crying really hard cos the dream was so real and she seemed so sad. Then few days after, he told me about another dream he had. This time he was happy about it because in that dream, mummy was wearing one of her favourite dress and dancing away.

She will always live in our memories. I will always remember her for her kindness, her need to be prim & proper and her passion for the things she love. Nadya might not be able to grow up knowing her nenek. But she’ll grow knowing how much we love her.
We promised to always tell her stories about her nenek, the wonderful times we had and the amazing person she is.

Al Fateha.

Motherhood, Nadya Raessa

2 weeks on

February 1, 2015February 1, 2015 Dyan

Can’t believe it has been 2 weeks already. Because i still feel sore down under. Rasa macam minggu lepas je baru keluarkan baby. Lol But yes, it has been 2 interesting weeks indeed. Went for my Post Natal checkup with Dr Citra on Thursday. Checked on my stitches and so far it’s healing. That’s all i need to hear. I think i’ve not mentioned this before but i had a mini accident at the hospital. Had a fall in the toilet on the 2nd day of my stay. Totally my fault really, cos i moved around in the toilet without the nurse assistance even though i had a Risk for Fall tag on my wrist. Padan muka. Degil sangat. But it got the nurses and the doctors scrambling to my room in minutes. I think i scared the hell of them because i was smiling and apologising. Got to know the ward have a 100% fall free record for 2014 and guess who broke the record for 2015? Me. So so guilty nak mampos. Got to know from the night nurse that everyone was briefed about it during their changing shift briefing and was told to look out for me. ~~The crazy bitch who went to the toilet alone. LOL~~ Kidding. They were told to look out for abnormal bleeding on my end. Although so far it has been ok actually. The only thing i was scared of was, did i rip my stitches apart? Apparently not. Anyway enough about the stitches.

Friends have been asking “how are u coping?” / “how are you & baby?” / “are u ok? Do u need help?”. So much love for all these people and honestly, if anybody tell you motherhood is easy, don’t listen to them. Because it is not. If you think you’re overly paranoid when you’re pregnant, try being a first time mom. I can’t tell you how many times i’ve check on Nadya. Just to make sure she’s still breathing. And when she keep too still during sleep, i cucuk her pipi so she’ll stir in her sleep. Don’t judge me. I’m sure most first time mom do that.

If you ask me how is motherhood treating me so far, i’ll say it’s draining. You get so tired the 1st few weeks and i don’t know what the next few weeks would be like. Kita rembat je lah k baby? Please don’t expect everything to be a bed of roses for the 1st few weeks because you gotta be superhuman to achieve that. You can read thousand of parenting articles while you’re pregnant but you need to be thrown into motherhood to really know how it’s like. But at the end of the day, when you see your child in deep sleep, safe & happy, you know you’re doing something right. Whenever Nadya scream bloody murder, i look at the photo above and whatever naughty thoughts i have of putting her back in my tummy, hilang begitu sahaja. Lol We also managed to do Nadya’s Cukur Rambut at Masjid Ar-Raudhah. She was surprisingly quiet. I think she find the buzzing sound of the shaver kinda comforting. I shall bear that in mind. It was pretty fuss-free really. The ustaz briefed us on the importance of doing the cukur rambut. Basically it is a Sunnah Nabi and also for hygiene purpose cos some babies have the cradle cap thing on their head. It’ll be easier for it to go away if there’s no hair. Nadya didn’t have any cradle cap and i kinda think it was because of the many coconut water i drank because everybody told me so. So maybe it really works ah. Her head is really clean now. And by clean i mean botak. Hahahaha She got mistaken as a boy few times already. Padahal budak tu pakai baju pink, mittens pink segala and u think she’s a boy. What’s wrong withchu. Lol I’ve also discovered how Babywearing is such a gem especially at home! Because i need to do work and i’m alone with her most of the time, i’ve taken to babywearing her to soothe her when she’s fussy. She sleeps immediately this way. I’m a happy mummy because i get to do work and also keep a close watch on her. ~~Now i’m tempted to buy more wraps.~~ I still have so many things to talk about actually. Like my breastfeeding journey so far and the confinement i’m going through right now but we’ll leave it for later when i have time to post panjang lebar lagik ok?

Nadya Raessa

Nadya Raessa: The Birth Story

January 22, 2015April 3, 2019 Dyan

Trying to do up the birth story bit by bit as and when Nadya is asleep! So here goes the Birth Story, continuing from the previous post where i went for my check up and was requested to go in to the Delivery suite the next day.

And yes, i managed to get my Prosperity Burger meal with Twister Fries! So sedap.
and i washed my hair, trimmed my nails the night before as well. Leisurely packed whatever is missing from the Hospital bag and then contemplate what to wear to the hospital the next day. Hahahahaha.

So we were scheduled to go in the Delivery suite by 9.00am. Left home at 7.30am, took a cab down because we refuse to pay for the hefty parking charges and cos Rusly will stay with me throughout the entire stay and wouldn’t need the car anyway. Reached NUH by 8.30am and had breakfast 1st. I had Mee Soto with lotsa cili kicap, because i know when confinement start, no cili kicap for me! Sadded.

9.00 am
Told the #bloggirls i strolled in the Delivery Suite dengan Ray Bans atas kepala. So much swag that day. HAHAHAHAHA
Was strapped to the CTG Monitor and was told i was having irregular contractions. Told the nurse i lost my Mucus Plug that morning at about 6.00am. A doctor came in shortly after and said i’m still 3cm dilated and kept asking if i feel any pain. At that time, really no. I was still laughing cos Rusly was being a clown, poking me with the selfie stick and all. So annoyinggggg my husband.

10.30 am
Under Dr Citra’s instruction, the doctor on duty was told to prepare to break my waterbag and then we’ll see if i get contractions by then. They told me they’re trying to clean up one of the labour suite for me and will wheel me in once it’s ready. So i slept thru till i was wheeled in to the labour suite.

11.15 am
I was wheeled in to the labour room, they fixed up my IV Drip and the CTG Monitor again.

12.00 noon
The doctor on duty came in to break my waterbag. It wasn’t painful, just uncomfortable. Just like how i would describe a pap smear.
But i definitely felt the water gushing out. So labour officially starts now at 12.00 noon.

2.00 pm
Based on my CTG Report, still no contraction and still 3cm. Degil gila my uterus. I also don’t feel anything. Was lying down, falling asleep and then Dr Citra said they’ll have to give me Syntometrine, which is a synthetically-produced oxytocin to help my uterus contract and bring on the contractions. They administered the Syntometrine drip in me and in 15mins, the contractions came on full force. Like crazy.
Nurse told me because it’s synthetically produced, it hurts even more because it’s forcing the uterus to contract. No wonder Kak Fadillah, the doula who conducted the birth class told us to avoid syntometrine if possible. At this time, i was already asking for Gas for pain relief. I hanged on to the Gas like my life depended on it.

3.00pm
i was 4cm dilated and i was so much in pain, the gas no longer helped. I was so cranky and i was telling Rusly i want Epidural cos the Gas is no longer working for me. Rusly tried to talk me out of it and i screamed at him “I want Epidural now. Just give it to me” Trust me, that’s the nicer version. You don’t want to know how i managed to emotionally blackmail him that day to give in to Epidural. At that moment, i don’t care how they’re gonna administer the epidural. Dekat spine ke, kat bontot ke, kat mulut jadi aku diam ke. I just want the damn epidural. Lol

I was damn lucky the Anaesthetist was in the delivery suite at that moment cos he managed to come in less than 5 minutes after i requested for it.
I was told to sit at the edge of the bed. He told me i could inhale the gas while he administer and because i was so scared of epidural, i inhaled lotsa gas, i got pretty high. Macam on drugs. I was so high on gas that i didn’t realise what went on.. The doctor had to wake me up from my daze cos he wanted me to hunch a little so he can administer it for me. I only remember asking how long does it take for the epidural to take effect and they said 15 – 30 mins and i kept thinking 15-30min is damn long. But actually, the epidural took effect in about 5 minutes je. After 20 minutes, i can no longer feel my legs and my spine. And i was a happy girl in labour. I slept after that cos i wanted to conserve my energy for later.

Rusly was thankful i took the Epidural. In his words, “kalau i tau u diam macam gini, i suruh je u amik epidural dari tadi.”
So yes, call me a weakling, but that Epidural is the bomb. Hahahaha

4.30 pm
I kept feeling like i wanna poo so badly. Like really hujung2. I still have no idea how dilated i was already. I just thought it’s normal to want to poo before labour and i kept thinking “Hopefully i don’t poo on the bed. That would be really embarassing.”

5.30pm
The doctor on duty came in and then told me that my labour is quite sluggish cos i don’t dilate fast enough. Funny because he said that before he checked my cervix. Then i told him i feel like i wanna poo and he said “oh that’s ok if you wanna poo. That’s a good sign”.
He went on to check my cervix with a nurse and both of them went “Oh… She had a bloody show!”

I don’t know what the hell he meant by that but it jolted me up from my half-asleep stance and he went on to check my cervix, looked at me and said “i take back my words. You’re 10cm dilated already!! I can see your baby’s hair”. He then called Rusly over to see and my eager husband excitedly told me “Ehhhhh dah nampak rambut!! Like really hujung2 already!”

And me, priorities selalu all wrong asked him “B.. rambut dia banyak ke sikit?” Hahahahaha

Then i asked the doctor “So how now? I push now ah? Can tell Dr Citra now?”
He told me to try and push but my legs were numb, i couldn’t feel anything and i can’t push. So after calling Dr Citra, they decided not to let me push yet. Dr CItra want them to reduce the Epidural dosage and let my leg loosen up a bit and make me feel the contractions before i push. Else it could result in a bad tear if i kept pushing and pushing without feeling any contractions etc.

6.00 pm
By this time, i was excited of the impending labour. Like it’s finally happening! The doctor didn’t expect me to dilate from 4cm to 10cm in 2 hours and because of that, my epidural dosage was still quite high and they didn’t have time to reduce the dosage when i’m 7cm dilated as planned because tau2 dah 10cm dilated. So there i was, 10cm dilated with a strong urge to poo because baby is crowning and i was happily watching TV while seated on the hospital and texting the girls and updating them on what’s happening. Imagine me without Epidural. Confirm macam Hantu Mak Limah aku. Hahahaha

7.45 pm
By this time, i’ve started feeling the contractions again and that urge to poo was really bad, i just wanna push so we called the midwife in and i told her “i cannot take it. I want to push now”. So she went ahead to prep me for labour. Told me how to push and all. She told me to wait for the contraction to peak and then take in a deep breath and push while she count to ten. Rusly was really supportive and i feel i won’t be able to do it if he wasn’t there with me.

8.10 pm
Baby’s head is halfway out and they could see her head at the end already i just need to do a final push to get her out. By that time, Dr Citra is already in the delivery suite with me. The contractions were a little crazy by this time and i still can’t feel my right leg but i can feel baby moving downwards already.

8.27 pm
After a final push, baby is out and they immediately put her on my chest for skin to skin contact and the 1st thing i notice was her eyes, wide open looking at me. Although i know she’s unable to see me yet, i’m sure she was responding to my voice. That was surreal and honestly the most beautiful feeling ever. To finally meet my girl. I did’t cry, surprisingly. Maybe because i was too happy to finally see how she looks like and to see her healthy, giving out a good cry. MashaAllah, it was indeed a humbling moment.

I spent some time staring at her while Dr Citra quietly work in the background to deliver my placenta next. I managed to take a glimpse of the placenta and urmmm it was huge. I was still reeling from the excitement, whatever pain i felt during the labour was pushed aside. I didn’t even realize when Dr Citra started to stitch me up. I couldn’t feel anything, Alhamdulilah.

After the birth, Rusly went in to the toilet to wash the Placenta cos we wanted to bury it instead of handing it over to the hospital. We end up burying it at Masjid Hang Jebat.

So that concludes my almost drama free Birth Story which lasted 8hrs+. Not the shortest labour but Alhamdulillah not as long as i’ve imagined.

Nadya Raessa was born on 14 January 2015 at 8.27pm, measuring 53cm and 3.215kg.
She’s a week old now and one of the most precious being i hold close to my heart.

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Nadya Raessa

January 16, 2015January 20, 2015 Dyan

And our precious one finally made an appearance on 14 January 2015 at 8.27pm. Alhamdulillah.

I’m still getting the hang of motherhood. Pretty intense. I get frustrated when i can’t seem to latch her on properly. But when i see her fall in deep sleep, my heart swell with so much love, i cannot take it.

I hope i’ll have time to pen down the birth story soon before i forget the details. But honestly, i doubt i can forget what happened. Lol

Pregnancy, Third Trimester

40 weeks

January 13, 2015 Dyan

Ok nak jugak blog sampai 40 weeks! LOL

Went for my routine check up today. Early this morning, i drank air zam zam, ate kurma and talked to baby. Told her “Ok babe, let’s make this our final check up please.”

Was supposed to go the Fetal Scan Centre at 11.30am and then see Dr Citra at 12.30pm but i forgot about the 11.30am appointment and strolled in the Women’s Clinic like a boss at 12.30pm instead. Now, this is why i need to deliver my baby soon because the pregnancy brain is seriously tak kelakar. Luckily Dr Citra said she’ll do the scan herself nanti!

So first up was the CTG Monitoring. Was a little anxious cos yesterday, it feels like baby is making less movement. She used to kick me really hard and now all i feel is just her squirming. So to hear the heartbeat loud and clear when they did the CTG Monitor was very reassuring and then guess what, my little girl think it’s funny to move around a lot during the entire CTG Monitor. The machine beeped a few times cos it lost contact with baby’s heartbeat cos she was all over the place so the nurse sat next to me, holding the small monitor terkejar2 kan heartbeat budak kecik ni. Lol.

After that, Dr C did a scan to mainly check on my Amniotic Fluid level and to quote her “it’s on the lower side of the healthy range.” A healthy AFI Level should be between 5 – 20. Mine is at 7. So my waterbag level is slowly decreasing. Bila masa dia decrease i also don’t know. I told Dr C about the lower pelvic pain i had in the morning. It was so intense i had to bend down and rest at the kitchen sink and could barely walk. But it went away after that so it could be a muscle spasm or something. TMI but i really wanted to pass motion at that time but i was too scared to. LOL

Told her my Braxton Hicks contractions was intense last sunday. I first thought it was contractions but when i timed it, it was irregular. So i didn’t bother calling the delivery suite. Dr C told me it is definitely my body preparing for labour and i could be dilated already so she offered to check my cervix and do a membrane sweep.

My cervix is soft and i was already 3cm dilated. Baby is also quite low already based on the scan.
Based on that alone, she asked me if i’m ok with being warded today. But i asked her if it’s ok i go in to the Delivery Suite tomorrow instead because i wanna go home and wash my hair 1st. Hahahahahaha. Not kidding.
Partly also because i wanna eat Prosperity Burger & Twister fries nanti malam and also because DHL is coming to deliver my car seat cover today and i don’t want to miss the delivery. PRIORITIES ALL WRONG! LOL

That and also i’m hoping that the membrane sweep will somehow kickstart the contraction and i can start labour naturally tonight. Else, Dr C will break my waterbag tomorrow. Think she’s concerned because my waterbag level is decreasing and because baby is making less movements. So yes, i figure better be safe than sorry. I told her to put off inducing me and do another membrane sweep 1st besok before she break my waterbag. ewaaaah.. aku pulak yang mengajar!
But damn that membrane sweep is sooo uncomfortable. It’s like Pap Smear x 10. Cos she pushed her finger right up to my cervix and then make sweeping motions with her fingers. I bled after the membrane sweep and i’m still bleeding but she said it’s normal after a membrane sweep procedure.

It’s now 3 hours after the membrane sweep and i do feel cramps and backache.
I also think i was already having mild contractions all this while, cuma aku je tak tau. Hahahaha. Tau2 dah 3cm dilated.

I’ve packed all my necessities in the hospital bag already. Now just waiting for dinner time, to order McDees and then hopefully i get to sleep for a bit because tomorrow will be another intense day.

Wish me luck!

Pregnancy, Third Trimester

39 weeks

January 7, 2015January 7, 2015 Dyan

oh yeah.. Baby is still in my tum-tum.
Had another Gynae appointment yesterday and Dr C told me “try going for long walks.. take the stairs.. eat spicy food”
So i went shopping at Jem after the appointment to look for nursing bras and some other necessity, like errr cute hairbands for me. Lol

The shopping trip had me in stitches though (and few hundreds poorer!). I had Braxton Hicks in the midst of all the shopping. I’ve been having frequent Braxton Hicks and probably some false labor contractions the other night. But nothing so painful that warrant a visit to the hospital. After all, the cramps kinda subside when i move around so i figured it’s not a real contraction. So yes, i’m still wondering how real contraction feels like.

I’m also nursing a fever, flu and a bad cough. So i’m kind glad labour has not started yet cos i prefer not to be sick during labour. I get really cranky when i’m sick and the thought of having to push a baby out seems like double the hard work. So i told Dr C to prescribe me meds so i can clear the flu & cough up asap and i was given some antibiotics safe for pregnancy.

Dr C also mentioned checking my waterbag levels and an internal check next week and if baby is still not out yet, we’ll set a date for a possible induction at 41 weeks cos my sugar levels seems to be on a higher side these days. Although to be honest i blame it on the honey i’ve been taking to soothe the cough (ok lah… to be fair, i also indulged in Ben & Jerry’s. Lots of it!) But of course i didn’t tell Dr C that! Some things, you just don’t tell your gynae lah ok. Kidding.

Friends & family have been msg-ing me regularly to ask if i’ve given birth. Even Rusly’s colleagues have been asking him “is the baby out yet?”. Looks like we’re not the only excited ones!

Me at 39 weeks. I love my new pyjamas. So cute! But Rusly told me i look like a Vietnamese maid. Boohoo.
Or maybe he meant Vietnamese Mail Order Bride. Hahahaha

It’s even harder to sleep now. I sleep for 3 hours interval most of the time and each time i toss & turn in bed, Rusly will wake up and ask “You ok? Sakit ke? Contractions eh?” Lol.
Somebody will be having sleepless night for a week or so.

I’ve been tempted to try other natural labour-inducing method and then i saw this hilarious video on Youtube.

So cute lah this woman! Hahaha.
I might just be tempted to do this if i still don’t have any labour signs by next week! But probably not when Rusly is at home.
Super embarrassing sak. Dah macam ni.

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Of Hospital Bag & Nursery

January 2, 2015 Dyan

I’ve finally crossed these two from my to-do list, taking advantage of the few long weekends and the short week at work for Rusly.

We honestly didn’t do much for the Nursery cos we probably won’t be using much of it till later since baby will be sleeping with us in the Master Bedroom. We used the Nursery to store her wardrobe and supplies like wet wipes & diapers etc. If i had more time (and energy), i would have prettify it a bit more but this shall suffice for now.

Had to mosaic one of the poster cos it reflects her name. Lol

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