IVF Cycle No 2, Pregnancy

12 weeks pregnant! 

Oh yes 12 weeks now and i’m at the Fetal Care Centre while typing this cos i’m waiting for baby to turn cos baby been facing down and inwards. Pls pls pls turn sayang!

So relieved to see baby moving & turning though. Been seeing so many miscarriage posts lately that i became paranoid. Sampai some nights tak boleh tido pikirkan if baby is ok.

Waiting for the dreaded blood test now. Really hoping everything is well! Will be seeing the gynae in 2 days time to review the results. We opted for the Down syndrome screening and i know this is very subjective but we just to know if there’s any cause for concern.

Till the next update!

Nadya Raessa

Nadya goes to school!

We’ve enrolled Nadya in a playgroup. At last!
I procrastinated a lot on this. I want her to have an allocated time in a week to play & mingle with peers around her age. I initially explored Childcare but feel like it’s redundant cos i’m home most of the time and honestly don’t feel like the childcare around our area fits our requirements.

I sent her to the The Garden House for few parent accompanied sessions and i really like the place, the teachers and their values aligned with mine. Lots of play (especially outdoor play), they emphasize a lot in letting kids explore anything they want with their senses and minimal interventions from adults. It would have been perfect but the program is parent accompanied and i prefer an independent class so that it’ll be easier to transition to Nursery etc.

The Garden House also offer half day playgroup which i was really keen in but they start from 8am – 12 noon and it’s a 30 – 40 mins bus ride from our place (It’s at Bt Timah area) and because i don’t drive, it’ll be a hassle. It’s too out of the way for Rusly to drive her to school also cos he starts work at 8.30, at Tuas. Logistically, it’s merepek lah. I wouldn’t mind if the class starts later (maybe 10am onwards) cos we’ll get to avoid the morning peak period also. They do offer transport service but it’ll be too costly on top of the $850 school fees for a twice weekly 4hrs session so we let go of the idea but would totally be open to continue sending her for the Sproutling sessions again soon!

Then we enquired the Startots Playgroup under our block. Logistically, it is the best option (and the cheapest at $175 for 5 days, 2hrs a week!) but i don’t really like the environment. They close all windows, no natural light and do mostly sitting down activities, which i know Nadya will hate, except for Art & Crafts. Nadya likes the teacher though but then again, she likes almost everyone. So yeah.

I also considered Julia Gabriel and i know Nadya would enjoy it cos there’s lots of singing & dancing. It’s 2 times weekly, 2 hours per session and it’s $600+ for 2 terms (10 weeks) which is within our budget but again, it’s parent-accompanied and they are only left with the 9.00am slots which is understandable cos the 11.00am & 2.00pm slot is the more popular timing. 11.00am would be perfect cos by the time class is over, it’ll be her naptime. So although it’s only a bus away from our house to Orchard, we’ll definitely be stucked during the morning peak period.

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We then decided on My Gym again because timing was perfect. Twice weekly, from 10.45am – 12.45noon. By the time class ends, she’ll take her nap cos too tired from all the jumping around. Nadya used to attend the gym classes when she was younger and enjoyed it so going back to My Gym was not a tough decision to make especially cos it’s an independent class and the fees are the same as Julia Gabriel so it’s within our budget.

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She loves the teachers & love love love the huge space and all the climbing structure in school. So although My Gym does not offer outdoor play, i’m really happy she gets to explore & climb on her own. It will definitely help with her confidence in the long run because i would hate it if she’s not allowed to climb & explore because it’s deemed “too dangerous”.
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My Gym playgroup incorporates Free play & structured play. She obviously hates structured play but we’re slowly heading there because i also want her to be able to listen to instructions & participate in group play. Currently, her favourite is the free play & Arts & Craft and that is not surprising. Her teacher also noticed that she’ll participate in group play only if there’s singing involved. So ok lah. slowly she’ll learn to listen to instructions and sit down when told to. Right now she is all over the place. hahaha.

She’ll always carik chance to escape group play and run off on her own. It’s funny because for a little girl, she’s really fast so the teachers are always running after her. Lol. Tapi kesian pun ada. lol

For her 1st two lessons, i was allowed to sit in the class just in case she looks for me. But budak tu tak kisah pun! I feel so offended. Lol. During the 2nd session, i left the class after 30mins. It was hard for me to leave her with strangers to be honest. But i had to do it and i keep telling myself “It’s only for 2 hours!”

Nadya didn’t cry at all and i was so proud of her cos i totally underestimated her. She asked for me once but the teacher told her i’ll be back later and she said Ok! Lol

I couldn’t wait to pick her up that day and i was so scared she’ll cry. But alas.. she was so happy, she was laughing when she saw me waiting behind the curtain. It was too cute! ❤

 

IVF Cycle No 2, Pregnancy

10 Weeks Pregnant

I’m 10 weeks pregnant now and we’re fast approaching the end of the 1st trimester. I’m still pretty keeping it low key still cos we’re still cautious although i’ve been asked many times about the outcome of our Cycle No 2 and i hope people understand why I choose not to answer yet.

The 1st trimester with No 2 is so so different from Nadya’s. With Nadya i was really careful, more relaxed. Tak buat kerja mostly and had zero morning sickness except for some headaches.

This 2nd pregnancy, i was more active. It conveniently happen to be one of my busiest period with the sales of Sampul Raya & Dear Raessa during the festive season. I packed 1200 packages to be mailed all on my own. I still don’t know how i did it but i did it guysss. I left most of the carrying of heavy things to Rusly though. Although i also did an islandwide delivery for the sampul resellers during 1st week Ramadhan and it was so exhausting, i’m never doing it again! It was really exhausting & also all the travelling by car made me wanna puke seh.

If that’s not enough, i also did 3 days of Laloolalang Bazaar from 2pm – 11pm. Obviously after all that, my back hurt so badly so i took 2 days off from doing anything. Helped a lot really because after that, Raya spring cleaning starts!

With the 2nd pregnancy, i had morning sickness. It wasn’t an everyday thing, thank goodness but enough to make me feel so lousy. I’ll puke at the smell of garlic or anything strong. I’ll puke when brushing my teeth. I’ve changed my toothpaste brand so it’s helping! I’ll also puke with mouthwash cos it’ll leave an aftertaste and i used to be ok with it but this time, cannot take it.

I also cannot stand crowds. I get really mabuk macam nak pitam that kind, which explains why i was sitting most of the time at Laloolalang. So glad my sisters & husband were around to help!

I’m not complaining though cos i know some people have it really bad and i know this will go away soon! Right now, i’m just glad to be given another chance to be pregnant. Morning sickness or not.

First Trimester, IVF Cycle No 2, Pregnancy, Uncategorized

7 Weeks Pregnant

Today, i went for my 1st scan.
8.30am at Fetal Care Centre for the scan and then 10.00am at Clinic G for my review appt with the IVF Clinic.

2nd pregnancy and i’m still so nervous. Heck, even if it’s my 4th pregnancy pun, i think i’ll still be nervous seh. I went with an open mind but i’m secretly hoping for a singleton still cos i honestly don’t think i am capable of looking after twins, during & after pregnancy. But really, i’m just hoping for a viable pregnancy. Jangan lah tetiba scan & they find a blighted ovum ke chemical pregnancy ke. But Alhamdulillah, i saw the cute little fetus on screen with the blinking heartbeat. So emotional i cried.

Everything is going well so far and we’re having another singleton. Yayyyy!
I thought i was only 6 weeks but turns out to be 7 weeks and my EDD is set to be Jan 20 2018 which is a week after Nadya’s 3rd birthday. Another January baby! And so close to each other so boleh je save duit & celebrate birthday sama2. HAHAHAHA

It is also funny how things work out. When me & Rusly embarked on our TTC journey, we kinda agree on having our 2nd one at least 3yrs apart and really Allah plan cun-cun for us to have the 2nd one after Nadya turns 3. Sekali adik comes out before Nadya’s birthday ehh. Lol

My next appointment will be on my 12 weeks pregnancy for the down syndrome scan. Oh yeah luckily i called the Women’s Clinic way before the IVF started. Cos i heard the waitlist for Dr Citra is even longer now. I called them in April and only managed to get an appointment in September! Hahaha. But just nice ah. September would be my 20th weeks and i can just sign up for the maternity package from there & see Dr Citra for the rest of my pregnancy. Sticking with Dr Citra cos i’m comfortable with her & really think she’s great! Till the next update!

IVF Cycle No 2, IVF Journey, Trying To Conceive

Start of IVF Cycle No 2

Putting this on private till i’m ready to share about the pregnancy. 🙂
Yes i’m pregnant with our 2nd child.

The 2nd cycle was really quite straighforward since we’ve done all the previous check up etc. We just had to do some blood test cos it has expired, mainly HIV etc. My egg reserves are still good, above average but it has halved from the previous cycle in 2013. So yes, age factor. The earlier you do IVF, the better.

Here is the IVF Timeline if you’re interested to know!

This time round, they gave me Pergoveris right from the start, together with Gonal F 150iu. Yes, Pergoveris, the one that stings so so badly.

21 April – 25 April 2017: 
Pergoveris (Morning)
Gonal F 150iu (Evening)

26 April – 29 April 2017
Cetrotide & Pergoveris (Morning)
Gonal F 150iu (Night)

30 April 2017 
Cetrotide & Pergoveris (Morning)
Suprefact 150iu Trigger Jab at 11.30pm

1 May 2017
No jabs. Fast from midnight onwards.

2 May 2017 
Sperm Collection at 9.00 am
Report to Ward 2A at 9.30 am
Oocyte Retrieval at 11.30 pm
Out of Operation Theatre at 12.45 noon
Ovidrel jab by nurse on tummy
1st meal at 4.00pm. Discharged at 5.00pm

They extracted 5 embryos and all from left Ovary.

3 May 2017
Embryologist called to inform out of 5 embryos, only 2 fertilised.
1 is a 3 cell & the other one is a 4 cell. They will update me again the next day if the eggs are growing well and fit for transfer.

4 May 2017
Embryologist called, both eggs are growing to 8 cells, excellent quality. We’re good to go for the Egg Transfer the next day!

5 May 2017
Embryo Transfer at 11.00 am. Done by 11.15 am. Discharged at 1.00pm. Our two wee wait begins this day!

I was quite slack this time round honestly. Didn’t follow my diet as strict as  the 1st cycle.
Or maybe cos i was really busy this time round and i didn’t have much expectation. I went ahead with IVF Cycle No 2, knowing this will be our last cycle. Whether it turns out positive or otherwise, we leave it to Him.

We even went for a 4D3N trip to KL during my 2WW just to eat & shop and when we were there, i had a feeling i was pregnant. I had minor cramps, i was tired and had leg cramps. My immune system was down, i fell sick. Had fever & flu out of nowhere. Few days before the blood test, i was exceptionally tired. Kept wanting to take afternoon naps, lasting 2-3 hours each time & kept having vivid dreams. I know it was also a side effect of all the Progesterone Suppositories i was taking but deep inside, i know i’m pregnant. My boobs were sore. I couldn’t lie flat on my tummy & not cringe cos it was so painful.

The blood test day, i left Nadya at my mom’s & insist on going alone. Just in case, it’s negative i might want some time alone. Had trouble drawing blood out, but what’s new kan? But i managed to get everything done by 9am and went off to Jem for breakfast. I wanted to go shopping and do so many things at Jem but i was so tired and when i still have not heard from them by 12 noon, i board a taxi to head back to my mom’s place to rest. Just as the taxi was turning out of Jem, the nurse called & asked for my location & told me to come back cos Doc wanna see me cos i’m pregnant! Woot wooot!
i rushed back to NUH to see Dr Shakina, who was happy to see me.
“You very lucky ah. 2 cycles all strike” Alhamdulilah..

Took my progesterone medication and hello Proluton! Time for the twice weekly butt injection again for the entire 1st trimester. Surprisingly, the injections don’t feel as painful as the 1st cycle. Maybe cos i’ve learnt to manage my expectations this time round.

Alhamdulillah for the smooth 2nd cycle. Now hoping the 2nd pregnancy will go on smoothly just like the 1st, Insha Allah.

 

Our Little Family, The Travel Tales

Kuala Lumpur, Feb 2017

I’m trying to get some posts out while i still can and this is long overdue, especially cos we just came back from KL again last week but thought i should document this 1st!

So if you don’t know me well enough, i adore Akim & The Majistret. I do not fangirl and i certainly do not follow celebrities like crazy unless they make really good music and i love A&TM music genre especially their newer songs. I remember listening to their songs every single night when i was pregnant with Nadya till i fall asleep. So of course i just gotta catch the concert in KL kan?

It took a lil bit of convincing for Rusly cos the concert is on a monday and children below 12yrs old are not allowed. The thought of leaving her with my parents for 4 days….urgggh. Don’t think i can ever do that.

So we proposed that my parents come along with us to KL and help us babysit Nadya on that monday. All expenses paid. Of course they said yes! lol. Problem solved!

2017-02-18 10.35.1412345Booked a 2 bedroom apartment through Airbnb cos it was more economical than booking 2 separate hotel rooms and also cos i think my parents would love it that they can play with Nadya all the time instead of waiting for me to bring her over to their room etc. It was the perfect arrangement. Nadya loves having them around. The apartment was perfect! Clean, modern and really close to KLCC where the concert was held.86We also managed to eat at Gyu Kaku just before they officially close down in April. Ahhhh my heart when i heard the news. It was our favourite place to go to whenever we’re in KL. 7Tried Chocoloco as well since it’s at Publika. Yums but pls share else it’ll get too muak. 162017-02-19 12.17.50-1

Also tried the Nasi Lemak at Kampung Baru. It was really mehhh.
Such a waste of time going there. Selamat dekat to where we were. We head over to Masjid India after that. Surprise surprise. Cos both of us actually paling tak suka go Masjid India. Hahahaha. But we kasi chance cos my parents love going to Masjid India.

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We ate at A&W though! And bought Nadya this Pikachu balloon from the street vendor. Makes her so happy. I still remember that face. So yeah nevermind that she’s sitting in the middle of Masjid India and dancing to Bollywood songs and we’re all covered in sweats. Lol

2017-02-20 14.41.48121413Concert day! We had the evening out to ourselves. Had a dinner date at Dolly Dim Sum. So yums but now my favourite Dim Sum place is The Dim Sum Place, here in Singapore.

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And the concert was amazing! It was better than i expected! ❤
I am even more convinced these bunch of guys are really talented and entertaining.

We sat 4 rows away from the stage, right smack in the middle so even though we weren’t allowed to take pictures or videos, i managed to take lotsa pictures & videos because i is so skillful.

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That’s the end of the trip! We end up bringing more people & spending even more on this trip but everybody is happy! ❤

Motherhood, Nadya Raessa, Our Little Family

Nadya Turns 2 (Day 1)

Yes melampau, siap ada (Day 1) because we went out for 3 consecutive days with her. No big party for her this year cos honestly too lazy to plan for one this year.

 

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Twinning with my baby girl! our little black dresses & our Puma Basket Heart in White!

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With her favourite boy! It’s so cute how she always demand attention from Rusly when he’s around. Nak pimpin, nak dukung, only with Papa. So endearing but also menyampah cos tetiba the mummy mcm invisible pulak. And yes, we were all dressed in black for her birthday. So HAPPY birthday eh? Lol

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Nadya is 2! Can u believe it? Sometimes i also tak percaya. Especially when i re-read my IVF entries (nak revise homework! lol), macam still in disbelief it has been 3 years since i was actively TTC-ing! This girl dah 2 years pun. Alhamdulillah, really thankful that Allah blessed her with great health for 2 years because really that’s all i want for her.

So for Day 1, we kept it really simple, we brought her out to have Waffles & Ice Cream. Our favouriteee! Tried Two Plus One at Woodlands since we’re heading there to collect her Birthday Cake from my friend. Nice waffles & ice cream but quite pricey for a neighbourhood cafe.

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Charcoal Waffles with Thai Milk Tea Ice Cream & Bubblegum Ice cream. No idea why that day i mcm terlebih adventurous. I’m usually very safe with my desserts. Most of the time it’s Chocolate / Caramel / Gula Melaka. That kind of safe.

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This is Rusly’s safe Choc Chip Waffles with Hazelnut & Creme Brulee Ice Cream. I LOVE the Creme Brulee one seh. So sedap and i think the Choc Chip Waffles lagi sedap than the Charcoal one. Can u hear me silently cursing myself for being adventurous sangat?!

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Ice Cream treat! i’m pretty relaxed about the food she takes, now that she’s 2. Last time, everything also cannot. Now, gasak kau lah nak. janji kau diam. hahaha. But u still need to tell me before u feed her anything please.

We head off to my mom’s place after collecting her birthday cake. Mom cooked Nasi Rawon for us. So sedap lah!

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A rainbow cake for the girl who brought in tons of colours in our lives ❤

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As expected, the cake cutting session was kecoh cos she couldn’t figure out how to blow the candles. Should have practised with her beforehand lah eh? So funny how she’ll auto sing Birthday song when she sees cakes though!

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Gifts from her Uncles, Aunties & Grandparents! Gift unwrapping session pun so kecoh lah and she loves everything they got for her. It’s hilarious. Nadya is really blessed to have so many people who love her as much as we do!

Happy birthday my sayang! ❤

 

 

IVF Journey, Our Little Family, Trying To Conceive

IVF Part II

The time has come!
We’ve finally decided to go for Cycle No 2! Actually we’ve talked about this previously. About wanting to try for No 2 when Nadya turns 2.

Nadya turned 2 on Saturday, 14th. NUH gave me an appointment yesterday, Monday the 16th. HAHAHA. Betul nya kasi chance nampak?

So anyway as i was saying, we did talk about trying for No 2 but for a while, i was a lil undecided about whether i really want No 2 or not. It was not a casual thought. It went on for months actually. Even when Polyclinic gave me the appt date, i was still thinking if i’m really sure about trying for No 2 cos it’ll be a fresh cycle all over again. This time round, with a toddler.

IVF No 1 was easy cos i don’t have to care for anyone except myself. Same goes for pregnancy No 1. I just buat hal sendiri and if i wanna wake up at 2.00pm everyday also can. But IVF No 2 & Insha Allah pregnancy no 2 would be a different ball game.

Then i realised i was overthinking things and i should just STFU and just go jer.
If Allah makes No 2 a reality, it means He wills it and He knows i’m capable of it. If He does not allow No 2 to happen, then maybe He knows i’m really not ready for it. Then i should just Redha. Partly, i’m also scared if No 2 does not happen as easily as No 1. Entah lah. But i’m at a better place right now and very sure that i want IVF Cycle No 2 to happen. Whether it results in baby No 2 or not, i’ll leave it in His hands.

So we went to Clinic G yesterday, informed the gynae i want to go for IVF No 2 and mentioned we want to start after the March School holidays because we’ll be going for a trip and we don’t want IVF to happen halfway. The gynae ordered a new round of blood test & sperm tests for us since the last time we did ours was more than 2 years ago and it has expired. She also advised me to try and lose some weight between now to March. So it’s time for me to start eating clean again!

So Rusly did his HIV Blood test yesterday. I only did some vaginal swab for Chlamydia test etc and have to wait for my next AF to arrive so i can do my Scan & Blood test to check on my ovarian reserves.

Results for the blood test will take about 6 weeks so i think we’re on track, Insha Allah.

Please keep us in your prayers. I’m so nervous for this cycle, God knows why.
I just hope it’ll be as smooth sailing as Cycle No 1. Insha Allah.

 

DIY Project, Motherhood, Nadya Raessa, Our Little Family

Nadya’s Pink House

So we spent our New Year’s Eve at home building a cardboard playhouse from scratch for Nadya! Initially i wanted to use several medium sized boxes from Fedex and stack them up etc but Rusly found a huge box from our last fridge purchase in our storeroom and it was perfect!

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But we created the roof successfuly, taped it up and tutup with mahjong paper before creating the door & windows.

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I then did a quick run to BPP to buy spray paints. Got 2 cans in Pink and 1 can in Blue. It was just enough!

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Also chose Spray paints over painting cos it’s much easier and we don’t have to wait too long for it to dry completely.

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I then made a Mail box, decorated the door & windows by pasting white paper on it. Also made picket fences because too cute!!!

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So this is how her new play area looks like. She really love the house. It’s where she keep all her soft toys and yesterday i caught her sleeping inside the house with all her toy friends. So adorable!

Motherhood, Nadya Raessa, Playdate, Uncategorized

Cool De Sac Playdate

So overdue but i still want to finish up all my overdue entries!

It’s Nadya’s 2nd time at Cool De Sac. Didn’t mind it at all cos she had fun the last time she was there and also i don’t know of any other Indoor Playgrounds at Town / Central area which is more convenient for all us.

Had lunch at Pappa Rich, ordered this Nasi Lemak Combo which is so huge! Obviously tak dapat habiskan ah. Habis lepas tu nak gi main indoor playground lagi. Dah macam ular seh.

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As always, Nadya’s favourite. Mesti nak masuk ball pit 1st. But i had to pull her out of it after that cos there was a boy, about 5yrs old who kept diving in the ball pit repeatedly. The mom pun mcm no brain. You know there were few toddlers in the ball pit, tell your toddler not to dive in ah. You don’t just sit in the ball pit and laugh with him. Some parents, really one kind.

We played at the main area for a while but it was a little rowdy, partly cos it’s the school holidays so there were many older kids.The main area is not padded so when the older kids knock her down, she’ll fall on the concrete floor and after that incident where she fell flat on her face because an older boy knocked her down during waterplay, i get really paranoid! But i also don’t want to be a helicopter mummy and hover around her all the time. Then i remembered there was a hidden toddler area right at the back.

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Just perfect cos everything is toddler-sized and the area was padded so i let Nadya run free without worrying a bigger kid will knock her down and even if she jatuh ke apa, it’ll hurt lesser? lol

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This small playhouse is such a hit!

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Hahahaha i cannot tahan this picture. Nadya posing tak leh angkat!
Oh and it’s so difficult to get the the 3 of them to take a group picture.

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Probably the best out of the 1754 pictures i took. -____-

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